THOSE LOVELY MEMORIES (:

2007-05-19T22:43:00.000+08:00

Moved to http://www.severedheartstrings.wordpress.com/ (:

2007-05-10T17:29:00.000+08:00

I need a break!
and I can't wait for exams to be over.
can't wait
can't wait
can't wait!!!

I'm totally exhausted from intense studying these few days. Had e maths paper 1,physics paper 1 and physics paper 2 today. 3 papers in a row, and my brain juices were already squeezed dry by the end of physics paper 1. I'm sure I'm gonna fail physics again. SIGH. Physics never fail to bring down my mood :(

Show me how I'm supposed to trust in things beyond my sight
When my faith can't reach that far

2007-05-05T22:53:00.001+08:00

HELLO WORLD! (:

Yes I know I haven't been blogging, would update about NPCC Annual Parade, Speech Day and Prefects' Investiture soon after exams. So this 2 weeks plus will be all about mugging, mugging and more mugging! I hope I wouldn't go crazy,haha =)

To all my friends: It'll soon be over before you know it, so hang in there guys! Loves! :]

alright,
JANICE WILL BE BACK SOON AFTER EXAMS :D

2007-04-17T22:48:00.000+08:00

I hate moodswings, but i seriously can't help it. I've been moodswinging for the whole of today :(

A Maths test was a total killer. I got stuck at almost all the questions and in the end, I just gave up. The more I tried to figure out how to do those sums, the more I feel like crying. So I decided to just forget about it and wait to get a failing mark. I was so pissed off with myself. I really don't know what's wrong with me. I had so much more time to do the paper but I chose to give up instead, perhaps it's because I'm afraid I'll end up crying cause I don't think I can recall how to do those questions. RAHHH!

Then I got back my chinese and physics test- I failed both. Great. I was really disappointed but I guess I'm kind of immuned to it? I don't know whether this is a good thing or not cause previously, my results used to affect my mood alot to the extent that I'll cry over it if I don't score well, but for now, I still feel upset but it doesn't really affect me as much as it does like in the past. Failing tests and exams have been sucha a norm that it no longer triggers those feelings of extreme sadness in me. I wonder whether I should be happy or sad that I'm feeling this way.

Falling faster - barely breathing,
Give me something to believe in.

2007-04-15T22:34:00.000+08:00

Next week's gonna be a really busy week for me.

Monday: Chinese Test, Dance rehearsal
Tuesday: A Maths Test, Dance rehearsal
Wednesday: Speech Day rehearsal, Np day parade training, A Maths tuition
Thursday: Pure Geog Test, Dance rehearsal
Friday: E.Maths Test, Speech Day 2007
Saturday: NPCC Day Parade 2007
Sunday: A Maths tuition

1 more week left to practice the dance item for prefects' investiture.
1 more training left before the actual NPCC day parade.

To Sec 4 prefects: I know it's hard to learn how to dance well within 2 weeks
because none of us knows how to dance. So do turn up for the rehearsals cause
it's really important that we have more practice. We may not be able to dance as
well as modern dance,but i'm sure we can at least put up a decent performance
before we step down ya? (:

To my dearest np mates: We've been going for so many trainings at
hta,travelling all the way to choa chu kang just to train,so we must not let our
hard work go down the drain k? Let's put up a good show on sat and make nvnp
proud,love you guys to bits :D

JIA YOU AARON!
JIA YOU AMALINA!
JIA YOU GERARD!
JIA YOU HONG HUI!
JIA YOU HUDA!
JIA YOU JOYCE!
JIA YOU KAH WAI!
JIA YOU LIP YOUNG!
JIA YOU MILFRED!
JIA YOU MUN TING!
JIA YOU THERESA!
JIA YOU EMILIE!
JIA YOU LONG XIANG!
JIA YOU SHI JIA!
JIA YOU WEI JIE!

2007-04-13T22:43:00.000+08:00

Alright,the previous post was for me to vent my frustrations,I suppose I'm ok now (: I think I really gotta learn not to judge myself through the eyes of others.

So I actually managed to survive through school today with chemistry test,chinese test (mo xie),physics test and napfa test :D I really hate to have so many tests in one day because I'll get all stressed up when it comes to studying. I'd get my facts all mixed up sometimes,and it can get quite frustrating. I always cannot make up my mind on which subject to start first,so I will study chemistry for awhile,then switch to physics and then switch to chinese. At the end of the day,I think I wouldn't be able to score well because I only studied a little for each subject. RAHHH. Perhaps I really need to get used to this stress because O levels is gonna be like this.

Napfa test was truly disappointing. I didn't manage to get a gold all because I scored a D for inclined pull-up. I really tried my best alrdy but the teacher was just so strict. Besides that,I got 3 As and 1 B for the rest of the 4 items. I don't know why but I almost cried because I thought I could maintain a gold for 4 years,but this year,I'll only be able to get a silver :( But whatever it is,I know I tried my best,so there isn't really anything that I can do. Yupps.

Npdp training tmr. Looking forward to it,jia you np mates! [:

2007-04-11T09:29:00.000+08:00

Friends.
Aren't they supposed to accept you for who you are?
Aren't they supposed to be the ones who don't mind about your looks or what so ever?

Perhaps you all may think i'm over sensitive or what,but i guess you guys will feel the same way too if you were me. I don't mind if friends criticize me about my attitude or character,but I DO MIND if they criticize me about my physical appearance. Character and attitude is something that I can change,instead I will be more than happy if my friends tell me my bad points so I can change for the better,but what I totally cannot accept is when people keep commenting about my looks. What can I do about my looks then?Go for plastic surgery?Obviously not right! I think you should really put yourself in the shoes of others and think of how they feel. Does it make your day better by saying those hurtful comments?

I've been trying to act like I don't care or simply ignore those comments,but i guess there's a limit to everyone's tolerance. Deep down inside,it's hurting me alot. I'm tired of hiding these feelings in front of others.

2007-03-31T18:39:00.000+08:00

Man,I'm dead beat now.

Went to hta for np day full dress rehearsal and today's training was uber tiring. We were supposed to wear our first uniform,so we got changed immediately after we arrive,but after almost everyone has changed into their first uniforms,the CI told us to change back to half-u. Wasted a whole lot of time getting changed,taking down t-shirt sizes for our shirt,collecting the arms from the armoury and putting our bags. So all of us got kind of impatient,but this can't be helped,cause there were 100+ of us. The weather was super humid and we were perspiring real badly even before training starts. I got scolded by one of the sirs because he said I didn't wear my half-u properly. He was really sacarstic and he embaressed me in front of the others :( Being the right marker is so stressful and scary. It's like if you make a mistake,you'll get scolded by the CIs just because you are the right marker. I was really tired during training so at one point of time,I didn't lock my arms when marching,so one of the sirs approached me and said that if I continue to make that mistake,he's gonna change my position as a right marker. *sigh* All these scoldings kinda affected my mood just now and i almost teared. Whatever it is,i'm not gonna give up and i'm gonna prove to them i can do it. HANG IN THERE JANICE! =)

Anyway,we had our bayonets on our m-16 rifles today,and it's really cool! Haha (: I guess the whole GOH girls contingent improved alot today,and with more effort put in,i'm sure we'll do well on the actual day [: We shan't let the CIs say that the boys are better than us,cause girls can do as well too :D

School this week is stressful! I'm seriously lagging behind for e.maths and a.maths. I cannot catch up with the pace mr aw is going now. All the teachers are rushing through the syllabus and i'm trying really hard to absorb everything,but i can't,cause my mind has reached it's saturation point. I'm puting geography to use,hahaha (: Oh well,due to np day training,i always have to leave class early and miss quite a number of lessons,so I really gotta do self-study and catch up in which ever subject that i'm lagging behind.

Sec 4 life is seriously tiring,having to juggle my time between so many things. Many a time,it's either i revise my work and not get enough rest,go to school,feel tired and just completely switch off in class,or I take the time to sleep and feel lost in class cause I did not do self-study to catch up with whatever that I've missed,so I don't know what the teacher is talking about. It's so contradicting and I really don't know what to do.

So many things to complete and yet so little time.

2007-03-26T21:09:00.000+08:00

I know it's been 2 weeks since my birthday but nevertheless,i still want to blog about it (:

Firstly,i wanna thank those who celebrated my birthday with me, gave me presents and of course,everyone who wished me :D

They are: Gerard, Amalina, Priscilla, Si hua, Jessica Chua, Jessica Lee, Kok Hwee, Cherine, Cherlyn, Guan Hua, Jolyn, Jaslyn, Regina, Jillson, Cheng Kai, Tai Hong, Aaron, Bryan Chan, Bryan, Nicholas, Tiek Han, Shi Ting, Seng Guan, Jasmine Chi, Lip Young, Hao Zhi, Sophia, Kenneth, Milfred, Mun Ting, Pei Yi, Jun Hao, Kang Cheng, Chong Ee, Xi Hong, Joanne, Joyce, Natasha, Li Fang, Esther, Eunice, Wei Kang, Braudon, Daryl, Trena, Theresa, Xiao Xian, Desmond, Kah Pin, Hong Hui, Kah Wai, Min Hui, Samuel, Jasmine Lee, Chien Wan, Anderson, Wei Ling, Shaun, Juvenal and Yan Kang. [sorry if i missed out anyone. do tell me if i nvr credit you] Love all of you! (:

So pris, mun ting, aaron and hong hui surprised me by coming to my house at 10 plus at night during my birthday. They bought me a birthday cake and we had a mini party,haha,it was really fun and i had free "chocolate facial". They also got me a pencil case,a converse tee and a box which was specially hand made by them. It was really really nice and i can see they put in alot of effort in it. Was really touched can,haha,thank you guys! :]

Also,i wanna thank bryan,tiek han and shi ting for celebrating my birthday with me too (: We went out for movie and dinner and it was all on bryan and tiek han. Thanks alot for the treat =D

Yupps,and now i can say that i am officially sixteen :D NC16 movies,here i come! Haha! So i guess it's all part of growing up. The process is tough with lots of emotional strains and pressure,but this is how life is and everyone has to go through it. Somehow,i wish i can stop growing,cause i don't wish to face the cruel reality this world has to offer. Humans are always strange because when they are young, they want to grow up and be an adult. But when you are an adult or an adult-gonna-be,you just wish to revert back to the simple life you once lead as a child. I have this same feeling too,how interesting.

Ok,so life's been pretty much the same. I'm very worried about my studies because i'm still lagging behind for some subjects. It's only a month more before the sec 4s step down for prefects. We've been busy preparing for the upcoming prefects' investiture and making over the prefects' room. Lots of things to be done like interviewing the prefects and preparing all the things to hand over to juniors. I just hope that people will appreciate the hardwork that we've put in.

All I can hear in the silence that remains,
Are the words I couldnt say.

2007-03-12T20:33:00.000+08:00

WOOTS!
3 and a half more hours to sixteen!
yay! :D :D :D

2007-03-11T11:07:00.000+08:00

My apologies for not blogging for nearly 2 weeks. I was very occupied with common tests and all the other stuffs.

Went to pulau ubin for atf with np mates on 2nd march. We tried out the high elements there and it was really fun and challenging (: I didn't get to enjoy myself as much though cause i was having a bad stomach upset for the whole day,but i still tried the elements :] The best was still the double flying fox which was 8 storeys high,it was super nice,unfortunately we didn't get the chance to do it for the 2nd time. There were still other elements like the intermediate rope challenge,advanced rope challenge,leap of honour,the ladder thing (i forgot the name for it) and the underground tunnel. We didn't get to try all but we did most of it :D

Pictures from atf:

Friday was sports day and the sec 2s and 3s had to do crowd control duty. A few of the sec 4s had to go in full-u too cause we had to supervise the juniors. There's nothing interesting except for the cca relay,cause np sent 4 teams to run for C girls,C boys,B girls and B boys respectively =D We came in 2nd for C girls and 3rd for B boys,yay!!! Haha,so after sports day,we took bus to sjc to report for np day training. The bus came at 2.30 to send us to HQ. Training was tiring. I guess it was because we were all exhausted from sports day. I kept yawning and stoned a few times throughout the training,but I was lucky not to get scolded by any of the officers xD After training,we headed back to school for np bbq. Reached there at around 7.45pm. Didn't eat much though cause mun ting and I were too busy settling the sec 1 attendance,haha,but nevertheless,we still had a great time there [:

I LOVE LOVE LOVE NP MATES!
Sometimes,I really can't imagine life without them. The times we spent together,I'll never forget them. You guys left me with some of the most beautiful memories one could have. You all were the ones who brought me through my toughest times,who listened to my never ending complains,who were there for me when no one else was and who meant the world to me. Thank you for everything.

2007-02-27T05:14:00.000+08:00

It's 5.15 am now and i'm still mugging :(

A. MATHS AND GEOGRAPHY ARE DRIVING ME NUTS!

ok,bye. back to mug.

2007-02-25T19:11:00.000+08:00

The chinese new year break is over and we're back to school again.

Mr lim spoke to me during reflection period on friday and we talked about lots of stuffs. I think the main problem is I have poor time management skills. Like mr lim said,I could have made use of pockets of time in between meetings and all that to do my homework. Sometimes,my day is just packed with so many activities that I really need to take a break. He told me that he realize my school days and weekends are always fully packed,and if I do not let go of some stuffs,I will break down 1 day,and it's gonna be hard to recover from it. I thought about it for a long time and the first question that struck my mind was: "Am I being very irresponsible by doing that?" I decided to do all these so I should just carry on right?I mean I shouldn't just give up halfway like that. Rahhhh! I'm in a confused state of mind now and I feel really lost :(

Still trying to cope with everything. Studies,cca,friends,family and relationship. Yes,I know very well that i'm still not coping well. I feel so confined in my own space doing all the things I have on hand. I don't know if this is the life i really want.

When our time is up,
When our lives are done,
Will we say we've had our fun?
Will we make a mark this time?
Will we always say we tried?

2007-02-18T10:24:00.000+08:00

WISHING EVERYONE A HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR :D

just like the past years,we had reunion dinner yst at the resaturant located at farrer road. got to meet up with my relatives and catch up with them (: haha,i've always loved reunion dinners cause it's really nice to have everyone coming together to eat. so,i gotta see my dearest niece,megan! she's alrdy 2 and a half yrs old and she's super smart and cute! love her loads [:

so the next 2 days will be going to different places for visiting just like today. am gonna enjoy myself as much as possible before school starts again,and all the tests will start pouring in. yupp,thats about it,hope that all of you have a wonderful year ahead =)

2007-02-14T19:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY! (:

today's valentines' day,and it's a special day to everyone. to me,valentines' day is a day for us to show our loved ones that we care for them,and it's not just meant for couples but friends too :] school today was great! everyone was carrying big bags of presents,distributing them to their friends and classmates. people were wishing each other happy valentines' day along the corridors and the atmosphere was just so heart warming. i love the atmosphere,where everyone is happy and they know that they are loved by the people around them =) it feels good to receive gifts from friends,even though the gifts are mostly candies and chocolates,but it really means alot! want to thank all my friends who wished me and those who gave me gifts,be it chocolates,sweets,marshmallows,accessories,stationery,letters or soft toys..i really appreciate it alot (: haha,i will take my time to eat those munchies. maybe i'll just put them on my table and whenever i feel down,i'll pop one into my mouth =D

anyway,i apologise for not updating cause i've been rather busy lately. basically,the past week had been full of ups and downs.

i cried on tuesday because i failed my recent physics test. many people have been telling me not to be too upset about it since it's just a class test and not some major exam like o levels,and it will not affect my ca marks. but the point is that i've been failing almost every physics test and exam since last year,and no matter how hard i study for it,the results seems to be the same. the feeling of discouragement spilled into my heart,and i just feel like giving up on physics. my friends around me have been improving on the subject but i'm still not making any improvements. if this continues,i really don't know how i'm going to sit for o level physics paper this year :(

alright,enough ranting about physics test. i've one good news to share! haha,actually it's alrdy like 2 weeks ago but since i didn't mention it in any of my posts,i shall mention it now..

NPCC GOT A GOLD FOR UOPA (unit overall proficiency award)! =D

haha,yupp,we're overjoyed by the achivement cause only 18 out of the 100+ np units got a gold. our hardwork did pay off (: of course,it's not solely our hardwork,but also our seniors',wanna thank them for contributing so much to the unit (: now that we've got gold,we gotta make sure we sustain it. no doubt it's hard but i guess we all have to put in effort.

to np mates and juniors: continue to put in your 100% commitment in np and i'm
sure we'll be able sustain the gold that we got. it's gonna be alot of hardwork
put in but in the end,you all will enjoy the fruit of success. so let's all work
hard together towards a better nv npcc unit [:

so we got to be the GOH for npcc day parade and training started last friday. it sure feels different to go there as GOH than supporting contingent cause we'll be using m-16 instead of baton. haha,the rifle is so cool,but its super heavy. by the end of the training,all our hands were aching from flipping the rifles and all that. i'm so looking forward to the actual parade where we get to wear the no. 1!!! man,i think we will all look so smart in it xD

anyway,o level results were released last friday. a miracle had happened and i actually scored an A1 for my chinese!!! i was really surprised cause i expected myself to get a B3. despite the result,i don't know whether i should feel happy or sad,cause there were 3 of us who scored B3. seeing si hua break down the other day,i felt really useless not being able to console her. but it's a good thing that cherlyn's appeal was successful =) si hua and bowie decided to drop hcl instead :(

to si hua and bowie: though i really hope you 2 will appeal,i will still support
your decision. i'm sure that you guys will be able to score A1 this time,have
confidence in yourself and i'm sure you all can do it! :D

2007-02-04T15:15:00.000+08:00

i broke down yst night :(

there were so many things running through my mind that i just cried my heart out. i feel like i'm sucha weakling. i'm tired of faking a smile when i feel so lousy deep down inside.
everything is not going right.
i need a break.

i wish i could fall into a deep sleep and nvr wake up again

2007-01-27T20:42:00.000+08:00

reached sch at 8am today to help out in vistarian idol auditions. i was in charge of registration (: so the contestants started coming at around 8.30am,and there were 7 of them from 4E2!!! =D

perhaps some time ago,reality shows like singapore idol were rather popular but i think it wouldn't last for long. it's wearing off now cause there are just too many of these shows coming up that ppl are not interested in it anymore. the same goes for vistarian idol. for the past few years,the response had been rather good but this year there weren't many ppl who joined. there were only 24 so it's kinda pathetic. most of them are from upper sec,and the sec 4s make up the majority. maybe if i weren't organising it,i would join too?since it's our last year in school,we should just go for it. haha,but if i join,i'm sure i'm gonna make a fool out of myself. i can't sing for goodness sake xD anyway,a little dedication below to 4e2 peeps who joined the contest [:

to chin chin: don't be discouraged. at least you were brave
enough to go for it! yupp,you did your best alrdy =)
to bryan,juv,looyee,wanjing,chui laam,dudley: hey ppl! congrats
for passing the audition! next round will be a tough one but i'm sure all of you
will be able to do well! you all have my support! yay! 4e2 rule! haha,jia you!!!
:D

after the auditions,i went up to the heritage room to help the rest with the street name project. everything is more or less completed except that we still have to type out a few of the descriptions for the street names. headed home at 12.45pm. was supposed to accompany pris to j8 to buy some stuffs but i didn't go,cause i was too tired and i needed the time to do my work.

sorry priscilla! anyway,all the best for your concert
tmr! if you're nervous,just think of me and everything will be fine :DDD
hahahaha,don't get muscle ache from playing the piano! xD

2007-01-26T23:43:00.000+08:00

i guess there's a limit to everyone's tolerance,inculding mine. i'm not a superwoman. i'm just an ordinary human who needs time to rest too. i really hope you put yourself in my shoes and understand how i feel.

teamwork is not just about one person,it's about everyone working together towards a common objective. there may be conflicts and disagreements on the way but we all need to learn how to compromise. all of us have different characters and the only thing we can do is to accept one another for who they are. i really wish that everything will turn out fine and things like this wouldn't happen again.

i'm tired of putting on a fake smile every now and then.

2007-01-22T22:05:00.000+08:00

i'm having flu and very very bad blocked nose now :(((

school today was not too good for me cause i wasn't feeling very well. had headache after recess and it got quite bad i had to get panadol from juv. headache was gone after that but i felt abit feverish,couldn't really concentrate during class. felt much better after school though. stayed back in np room to do the proposal for this friday's training. only came up with a draft,will be having a meeting to come up with a more detailed one tmr. yupps,thats about it,nothing much about today.

dad: i don't know why i teared so much after you asked me those few questions. maybe there's some problems between you and mum but it seems to me that you still can't forget what happened 4 years ago. it hurt me so much that i took such a long time to get over it. you think it's easy for me to keep everything to myself when i was only pri 6 then?it was a painful stuggle and i didn't know who to turn to. now that everything's settled,why rake up the past again?i don't wish to be reminded about it and i don't want history to repeat itself again. i really don't want that scar to resurface again.

2007-01-21T11:30:00.000+08:00

i changed my blogskin again. i needed some motivation and that's the reason why i decided to choose this skin. will be getting my o level chinese results on 9th feb. i'm really worried now cause i'm afraid i wouldn't be able to get an a1 or a2. if i get anything below a2,i'll be super sad and disappointed..i think the chances are low,but anyhow,i hope a miracle will happen and i'll be able to get an a,best if it's a1 [:

yesterday went to school in the morning for alumni meeting to do the street name project. after that headed home to bathe and then met theresa and pris at cp to go to temasek poly open house. saw michelle,yang ling and peggy on the way so we decided to go together =) reached there at around 2pm,saw loads of ppl from our school,haha..the open house was not bad,ppl there were friendly and nice =D we went to the engineering school and business school to take a look at their courses. after that,it became quite boring,so theresa,pris and me left for town. when we reach there,it started pouring and it's difficult to get around as there aren't many covered walkways or linkways for us to get from one shopping centre to the other without being drenched in the rain. apparently,only theresa brought her umbrella,so we had no choice but to walk in the rain. moreover,3 of us were wearing jeans =X pris needed to buy formal clothes for concert so we went shopping for it at far east plaza,taka and wisma but couldn't really find any suitable ones. so we headed down to bugis and finally we found a suitable dress at bugis village,it was 9.15pm by then,haha..took us a whole day just to shop for a dress. perhaps we were all too fussy about the clothes,lol! but it's worth it afterall (: after that we walked around to look for kah wai's birthday present. it's very belated cause we didn't have time to buy it the last 2 weeks. in the end,we bought a sling bag for him! the design is so cute :D haha,we alrdy rented a locker so we're gonna out that bag into the locker and then write him a card and put it inside too. gonna give him the key to the locker tmr,hope he likes it! [:

2007-01-16T23:32:00.000+08:00

the past week had been all about meetings and proposals. planning for prefects meeting and exco meeting,writing proposals for sec 1 training and so on. there were a few days i didn't get to slp cause i had to write the proposals,do the admin work because the new sec 1s are coming in as well as to complete my hmwk. it's been a tiring week for me,and a stressful one too.

the very first sec 1 trial training didn't go that well. it was quite screwed up due to the wet weather. there were many last min changes and we quarelled abit as a result also. oh well,i hope everything goes well this week. or maybe i shall put it in another way - i shall make sure everything goes well this week [:

went for the alumni youth wing induction in school last sat. there were me,pei yi,milfred,min hui,yeo mei,jia qi,xiang yu,winston and donavan,of course not forgetting the youth wing people (: yupp,it's actually a ceremony to formally acknowledge that we are in the youth wing now. then there's this ritual which all new members have to do,and that is to drink the "youth wing spirit". it's a concoction of snake water,apple vinegar,chilli sauce and orange squash,and for the guys,a raw egg will be added. it's super disgusting and the cup is the size of a bubble tea cup,moreover it's one full cup and we must finish it. man,i really don't know how to describe the taste of it,and i think with the chilli sauce added,it just makes the whole thing worst. you can literally feel your stomach "burning" after gulping the drink down. come to think of it,i can still taste the drink at the back of my tongue >.< so after the drink,we had bbq dinner. the food was nice but there were still lots of leftovers cause i think they ordered too much food. got to know more ppl in the youth wing and i must say they are all really nice! haha,at first,we were abit anti-social cause we kept playing dai dee but after we got to mix around with the ppl for awhile,things got better =D they taught us how to play a new game called "bridge". it's a poker card game that englishmen play and it's really fun,very thrilling..haha!

i admit i wanted to back out when i was first informed that i'm in the youth wing. it's not that i dislike it or anything of that sort,but the main reason is that i've too many things to handle,and i'm afraid i cannot put any commitment in it. but after thinking about it,i decided to just stay on,cause it's like since the rest of them can do it,i'm sure i can too =) alright,so this decision means another commitment cause we'll be involved in planning events like vistarian idol,vistarian race and so on. i hope this wouldn't affect much of my school work or anything.

YOU CAN DO IT JANICE! :D

2007-01-09T22:46:00.000+08:00

life is still as busy as ever for me since school started. teachers have been stressing alot on O levels and i know i really got to work hard this year.

had a maths test today and i don't think i'm gonna do well this time. i didn't study much except reading through the notes my tuition teacher gave. was really busy with prefects and np stuffs these few days that i didn't have time to study for it. yes,i know i'm just giving myself an excuse,because i could have slept less or not sleep at all if i wanted to mug a maths,but i chose my bed over my a math book instead. it's just too tempting :( i seriously need some motivation to study.

anyway,i've been feeling really lethargic lately and it makes me lose concentration in class. i may be looking at the teacher and it seems like i'm listening to what she's saying but in actual fact,nothing goes into my mind. i hate this feeling!!! it's like you're trying so hard to get things into your mind but your mind just refuse cooperate. RAHHH!!!

i guess things wouldn't be the same anymore

2006-12-31T22:31:00.000+08:00

today's the last day of 2006. well i feel kinda sad saying goodbye to this year,cause next year's my o level year,and i know it'll definitely be a stressful one for me. well,no matter what,i'm gonna stay positive and face the new year with a smile =D now for the review of 2006,here goes..

2006 have been a tough year for me. it was a big challenge to take up leadership roles both in np and prefects,and at the same time,trying to adapt to upper sec life as well as making sure that i'm well-prepared for chinese o lvls. it isn't easy trying to strike a balance between studies,npcc,prefects,friends,family and my personal life. there are usually many time and date clashes for both npcc and prefects,and i always have to make choices. making choices is not as easy as i thought,but i think it's only through this that i learn how to prioritize.

cca plays an important role in my life,and to me it's all about commitment. i think to be committed in something,we always have to make sacrifices. for me,it was sacrificing my time with my friends and also time for myself. basically,my life have been revolving around npcc,prefects and studies. i don't really have much time for other stuffs,but i guess it was all worth it [: since the responsibility is given to me,i know i just have to do the job well. i admit i would want to have more time with my friends if i can,but everyone only has 24 hours and we cannot change that.

alright,now for the resolution for 2007 :D
1) to be consistent in my studies and to study real hard for o levels
2) not to be rude to my parents
3) better time management skills
4) not to always let personal problems affect my mood

lastly,wishing all of you a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! :D may 2007 be a blessed year for all of us (:

2006-12-25T21:49:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! :D

this christmas is quite a sad one for me.

was supposed to go out with friends on christmas eve but mum didn't allow me to. i thought i could go out with my parents but both of them are just too busy with their work. my dad's office just shifted and he has to go back even on weekends too. so,i spent this christmas at home watching tv and tidying up my room. what a thing to do during christmas =(

anyway,it's only one week more to school re-opens.

one week left to complete my holiday homework.
one week left to get ready the books and stationery for the new school year.
one week left to get mentally prepared for sec 4 life.
one week left to tie up the loose ends of 2006.
one week left to get over everything that was never meant to be.

why did i let myself believe that miracles could happen?

2006-12-23T09:32:00.000+08:00

the past 5 days were occupied by npcc. went back to sch from monday to thursday for np 'tour de force' course. it's a course conducted by our CIs and we have been going back to sch everyday from 8am to 6pm. learned lots of new things and the activities we did were all different from what we usually do in normal trainings. shall not go into details about everyday but i think i will just blog about the major activities that we did (:

Rope Obstacles
it isn't my first time trying out rope obstacles but it was sure my first time learning how to tie a rope obstacle [: it isn't easy at all cause the rope is so thick and super heavy and you have to exert so much force in order to make the tension good enough. of course,it requires alot of people to tie it and lots of teamwork too. i tried pulling the rope and it was really hard,haha. as it was raining that day,we had to do it in the canteen and the canteen was wet and slippery,so you have to try not to slip and fall while pulling the rope. we tried tying 2 obstacles namely the 'double rope pull' and the 'warden's walk' which took us about 2 hours to finish tying them. after that,we were given an hour to try on the obstacles. i didn't try though cause there isn't enough time,so we let the juniors try it. i think it's really nice cause you get that kind of sense of satisfaction when you tie your own obstacle and try on it :D

CSI (Crime Scene Investigation)
played this game on wed and it was very very fun =) haha,at least its something different and i've never played it before. as the name suggests,we're given a case and in our groups,we are supposed to solve the case. our CIs came up with the story and the information of the victims and suspects. they created the crime scenes and used the classrooms as rooms of the different suspects. from there,we are supposed to go to the crime scene and the rooms to look for clues then come up with a conclusion on how the case took place. it took us about 3 hrs to play the game and in the end,all of us came up with different conclusions and some were really funny (:

Field Cooking
it was a complete different experience. instead of cooking the normal instant noodles and canned food using mass tins and solid fuel,this time,we cooked chicken,rice,soup,vegetables etc! mr lee bought many food like fishballs,fish fillet,sausages crabmeats,veggies,chicken and lots of other stuffs and we are supposed to cook using just mass tins and solid fuel. my group cooked rice,fried fish fillet,mashed potatoes,stir-fried the veggies and made scrambled eggs. theresa and i also made soup!!! haha,we added fishcakes,sausages,crab meat and egg into our soup,with a little soy sauce,pepper and sesame oil,our soup was delicious!!! haha,not that i'm bragging but it's really nice ok,haha,at least theresa and I think that it's nice (: it was my first time cooking veggies and all that with mass tins and solid fuel. the experience was great and i guess everyone enjoyed it alot =D

the course was a fun one,and i really got to know my np juniors better :D think the CIs and officers put in alot of effort to plan for this course and we really want to thank them.
THANK YOU SIRS!!! :]

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after the course on thurs,i went for the prefects graduation party for the sec 4s. want to apologise for being very very late. anyway,the food was great and i want to thank all those who helped to organise it. a big sorry to all prefects for not helping much with the organisation of the party as i have np course for the 4 days,sorry guys :(

to all sec 4 prefects: you all have been great seniors who never fail to give us advice. thank you very much for all your guidances. hope that you all enjoyed the party :D

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yst was the day when the new sec 1s report to school. we went back to school to do ushering and road marshall duty. reached school at 6.30am,changed to full-u and then assembled in the parade square. checked the uniforms of the cadets and then the sec 2 i/cs briefed everyone on what to do. got into our positions by 7.45am and we started on our duty. i was at the main gate doing the ushering job. everything went well until when the sec 1s proceeded to the canteen to buy their books. it was messy there and many parents were complaining about the schools' poor organisational skills. luckily,the problem was solved and we just continued doing our duties till 11am. yupp,that's roughly about it,nothing much to say. haha ;]

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i'm really exhausted these few days and i seriously need my sleep. haha,finally i'm free today and i'm gonna go shopping with priscilla and theresa!!! it's been a long time since i went shopping with them xD

2006-12-17T08:38:00.000+08:00

back from 1e1'04 chalet,as well as family chalet. had a hell lot of fun (:

13/12/06 (wed)
took the same bus as theresa,kenneth,seng guan and cherine. i am the first one to get on the bus,followed by theresa,kenneth and seng guan and then cherine. but i was late,so the rest had to wait at their bus stops,theresa told me they missed 5 buses while waiting for me. haha,sorry guys. reached there at around 12.40pm and we met su shan,kah wai,seng meng,yuan xiang,hoe kin,sean and yong sheng. took bus 354 to downtown east and went to macs to meet looyee,juv,cher,jas,hao zhi and jia yi. so we waited at macs for mr ng and then checked in to the chalet.

the chalet's nice but it's super small. luckily we booked 2 rooms joined together (: the boys started playing cards and x-box while the girls watched tv. yupp,and we were getting so bored that we started playing this disgusting 'bra' game. hahaha! the objective of the game is to know the colour of everyone's bras. so we started grabbing each other and pulling up the shirts to see the colour of the bras. it was super sick. haha,so after that we went for dinner at downtown east food court and headed back to chalet.

we started doing some silly stuffs and playing many games. it was hilarious.
1) looyee,juv and I had a lion dance using blankets
2) looyee and juv imitated shi xin hui's mtv
3) cher filmed the process of looyee giving birth (to a pillow -.-)
4) hz played fatal frame and we were all screaming when the ghost appeared
5) all of us played jenga (truth or dare) game and we made a fool out of ourselves =D
6) played 'murderer' and we had a hard time 'winking' at each other,haha!

after that,was supposed to do report but ended up having a talk with milfred. had a good time chatting [: we only went to slp at about 3.30am and woke up at 6.30am. i didn't slp though,cause initially i slept on the bed but it was too squeezy,so i went to slp on the floor,but the floor was too hard,the room was freezing cold and i didn't have a blanket to cover myself,so i ended up no being able to slp.

14/12/06 (thurs)
went to sch at 8.30am with mil and su shan. mil and i gotta go hand in the prefects report to mrs tan and su shan had to go back to sch to collect her books. took bus 89 there and it was a long trip. reached sch at 9.30am,but we were not allowed to get in cause we were in slippers. tried to explain to mr rashidin that we came from chalet and didn't have shoes,but he didn't allow us to go in,so we had no choice but to pass the report to pei yi and pris and then go off. su shan went home while mil went home to take some stuffs. i waited for him at the void deck. after that,took bus back to chalet.

slacked around for awhile,then juv,looyee theresa and i went to white sands. we had lunch at cavanna and went to ntuc to buy the stuffs that we haven't bought for bbq. reached the chalet at about 4pm,and we started preparing for the bbq night. hz's chicken wings were really nice. i didn't bbq much though cause i was busy frying seaweed chicken,nuggets and fries in the room. haha. there was also alot of alcholic drinks like jolly shandy,tiger beer,vodka and bacardi breezer. after bbq,we took turns to bathe and then we started palying truth or dare again! this time with more ppl like eileen and sophia :D looyee thought of many funny dares for us to do,and all of us had a good time laughing at each other. haha! =)

anyway,after that,juv,cher,looyee,hz and jy went out while eileen,sop,theresa,su shan,kenneth,seng guan,sean and me played heartattack! haha,screamed alot and it was fun (: it was alrdy 3.30am,su shan and cherine went to slp,eileen and sop went out so the rest of us played dai dee until 5.30am. slept for 3 hrs and i woke up at 8.30am.

15/12/06 (fri)
everyone else were still slping so i went over to the boys room to watch them play ps2. they were playing some fighting game. i played one round with yong sheng,and of course,i died terribly >.< looyee,juv,cher,jy and hz went home at 9.30am. the rest of us packed up the stuffs and we checked out at 11.30am. headed to macs to have lunch,i don't know why but theresa,cherine,kenneth,seng guan and i were talking about some serious stuffs. like future of singapore and education system,haha.

reached home at 2pm,and i went to slp. overslept and was late for tuition =X anyway,tuition ended at 8pm and i took bus back to pasir ris for my family chalet. didn't do much there except eat and slp. haha.

16/12/06 (sat)
woke up in the morning and i had a bad sore throat. almost lost my voice >.< went to meet kw,aaron,gerard and tai hong at compass at 1pm. as usual they were late and we only left the place at 3pm. took bus 80 to beach road to buy the stuffs for np course and then i went back to the chalet.

sorry that i didn't go for 3e2 farewell party for mdm sarifah at east coast. dad wanted me to be back at chalet by 6pm and also i was sick,so i couldn't make it. sorry guys. hope that you all had a great time there.

to mdm sarifah: thanks for being sucha great form teacher as well as geog teacher. we're gonna miss you next yr =( but whatever it is,all the best to you! we love you mdm sarifah!

17/12/06 (sun)
back at home from family chalet =) gotta go for physics and a maths tuition soon,so bye everyone!

1e1'04 chalet was really fun. it brought back memories of our sec 1 times,and i
really wish we could go back to sec 1 life. after 3 years in this sch,i still
love the ppl in 1e1. i'm just feeling so glad that all of us are still in touch
and that we can still play and have fun together like before [: i agree with
what su shan said,many of us have changed to better people =) time really flies
and next yr we'll all be taking our O levels. to all 1E1 ppl: wishing you guys
all the best next year. we'll have another chalet after O levels and by then,we
can really celebrate,haha! :D

2006-12-13T08:48:00.000+08:00

yay!!! today's 1E1 chalet. will be staying there for the entire 3 days,hope that it all turns out well (:

anyway,sorry everyone for my previos 2 posts,i guess i was being way too emo. yupp,enough of it.

wanna thank everyone for their encouragements,i really appreciate them :D i think what eunice said was really meaningful. she said that we can manifest anything positive or negative in our lives,it's our choice. yupp,i fully agree with it. perhaps it was because i did not open myself up to the positive side of things,and only viewed it all in a negative way. so i'll try to be more optimistic and also to welcome every new day with a smile :]

to everyone else who is not in a good mood recently for some reasons: cheer up! smile and the whole world smiles with you =D

2006-12-11T23:29:00.000+08:00

i don't know why but i'm still in a very lousy mood. does it really mean that having more commitments means you have to sacrifice your social circle?

rahhhhh! friendship is such a complicated thing :[

2006-12-10T22:13:00.000+08:00

very often,i'm very envious when i see my friends going out with their cliques during school hols,and spending much time with their friends. and i ask myself,why is it that i can't be like them?

i feel lonely,not literally,but i just have the strong feeling of emptiness deep in me. why is it that sometimes when i put my whole trust in someone,that person never fails to let me down?i'm tired of trusting people too easily. on the other hand,i have to trust the people around me,cause i'm a human too,i need a shoulder to cry on when i'm down,and i need someone who truely understands what i'm going through.

having to handle many commitments and responsibilities even during the hols,it's always hard to try to fit in anywhere especially when you are like absent for a period of time,and when you are back,everyone just seems so alien and unfamiliar to you,even your close friends. suddenly,all of them seemed so distant and you don't understand what they are talking about anymore.

on the surface,it appears i can click very well with the people around me,but when i have problems,i seriosuly don't know who to turn to. yes,at a superficial level,one may seem to have many friends,but so what if you have so many friends but in actual fact most of them are just hi-bye friends?

oh well,
i miss the times when i can just hang out with my friends after school,or go out with them during the hols :(
i miss the times when i can have lunch together with my friends after school,and just talk about anything under the sun :(
i miss the times when i don't feel strange in some places,and i feel comfortable with anyone,with the people around me :(

*when is all these going to end?

2006-12-09T18:53:00.000+08:00

i came across this and i find it rather interesting,so i decided to post it here (: here goes..

Exercise of the brain is as important as exercise of the muscles. As we grow older, it's important that we keep mentally alert. The saying; "If you don't use it, you will lose it"also applies to the brain,so........ Below is a very private way to gauge your loss or non-loss of intelligence.

So take the following test presented here and determine if you are losing it or are still "with it."

The spaces below are so you don't see the answers until you have made your own.....

OK, relax, clear your mind and...begin.

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1. What do you put in a toaster?

The answer is "bread."
If you said"toast," then give up now and go do something else. Try not to hurt yourself. If you said,"bread," go to Question 2.

2. Say "silk" five times. Now spell"silk." What do cows drink?

Answer: Cows drink water.
If you said"milk,"please do not attempt the next question. Your brain is obviously overstressed and may even overheat. It may be that you need to content yourself with reading something more appropriate such as"Children'sWorld." If you said,"water" then proceed to Question 3.

3. If a red house is made from red bricks and a blue house is made from blue bricks and a pink house is made from pink bricks and a black house is made from black bricks, what is a greenhouse made from?

Answer: Greenhouses are made from glass.
If you said "green bricks,"what the devil are you still doing here reading these questions????? If you said "glass," then go on to Question 4.

4. Twenty years ago, a plane is flying at 20,000 feet over Germany. If you will recall, Germany at the time was politically divided into West Germany and East Germany. Anyway,during the flight, TWO of the engines fail. The pilot, realizing that the last remaining engine is also failing, decides on a crash landing procedure.Unfortunately the engine fails before he has time and the plane crashes smack in the middle of "no man's land" between East Germany and WestGermany. Where would you bury the survivors? East Germany or West Germany or in "no man's land"?

Answer: You don't, of course, bury survivors.
If you said ANYTHING else,you are a real dunce and you must NEVER try to rescue anyone from a plane crash. Your efforts would not be appreciated. If you said, "Don't bury the survivors" then proceed to the next question.

5. If the hour hand on a clock moves 1/60 of a degree every minute then how many degrees will the hour hand move in one hour?

Answer: One degree.
If you said "360 degrees" or anything other than "one degree," you are to be congratulated on getting this far,but you are obviously out of your league. Turn your pencil in and exit the room. Everyone else proceed to the final question.

6. Without using a calculator -- You are driving a bus from London to Milford Haven in Wales. In London, 17 people get on the bus. In Reading,six people get off the bus and nine people get on.In Swindon, two people get off and four get on. In Cardiff, 11people get off and 16 people get in. In Swansea, three people get off and five people get on. In Carmathen, six people get off and three get on.You then arrive at Milford Haven. What was the name of the bus driver?

Answer: Oh, for crying out loud! Don't you remember? It was YOU, you dummy. :p

2006-12-07T16:37:00.000+08:00

i'm back from malaysia! :D

Day 1
we set off frm sch at 7.00am. as usual,it was a long journey to malaysia and we finally reach sarang buaya campsite at ard 12.30pm. had lunch and we proceeded on for our activities!

my grp did raft-building first. we were given 4 barriers and raffia strings to build our raft. it was kinda hard cause not everyone knows how to tie lashings,so the instructor taught us how to tie cross lashing and after that,everyone started assembling the raft. we managed to build our raft after an hour thanks to the cooperation of everyone in the group :] when we push our raft into the water and it floated,we were all really happy,and there was a great sense of satisfaction =) we went onto the raft that we built and we did rafting! it was difficult for us to even move the raft cause there were ard 14 of us on it. we had 6 paddles and we took turns to paddle the raft cause it was very tiring. in the end,a few of us decided to go down the water to push the raft,haha,and i was one of them (: the water was shallow but it's super muddy,to the extent that once you step on the ground,your feet will sink into the mud. it's gross but we seldom get this kinda experience,so i guess it was all worth it :D after rafting was canoeing. i partnered pei yi and we canoed 2 times back and forth the whole stream..it wasn't very tough canoeing there as compared to canoeing at kallang river cause the water was much more calm,plus me and pei yi got great coordination,so it wasn't much of a problem,hahaha xD

after all the activities,we went to bathe. the toilet was not really like a toilet,haha. the showers weren't working so we had to wash our hair outside,den go into the cubicle,fill the pails with water and shower our body. there were also lizards in the toilet,creepy..haha. had dinner and after that we went to a room in the campsite and had our reflections time,we also had to write an essay about a friend who we witness displaying the school values. haha,this is the first time i write an essay during camp >.< after that was supper and then we returned to out tents to slp =)

Day 2
woke up at 6.30am,went to wash up and then we had our breakfast. after that we left the campsite for trekking at gunung muar trek. it's actually a mountain but quite a short one,cause it only took us 2 hrs plus to go up and down,but the view on top was simply beautiful =]

we then returned to our campsite,pack up our stuffs and had lunch there. left the campsite at ard 1pm for sri coasta hotel. reached there at 3.00pm,changed into the shirt specially made for this trip and went to the seminar room. there we had our seminar until 6.30pm. we discussed about the prefects vision mission,expectations of prefects etc. it's actually a review of the yr 2006 and i think it's great to do it somewhere else instead of doing it in sch,at least it'd be more interesting (:

after the seminar,we returned to our hotel rooms for a bath before going to shop at tesco. pei yi,jia qi,jasmine and i went to the supermarket to get snacks for the night! haha,we bought fruit juice,cup noodles,tidbits and lots of stuffs. went back to the hotel and the 3 of them including shirley and trena came to my room. we sort of had a party inside,haha. we watched disney channel throughout the night and did the homework that ms norlina asked us to do. had a great time =)

Day 3
breakfast at the hotel was yummy! i always loved hving breakfast with my friends,esp breakfast in hotels cause it's usually buffet style and there are alot of things to eat,haha. after breakfast,we went back to our rooms,pack our bags and left the hotel at 10am.

the tour guide took us around malacca for a historical tour,before we were given time to shop at a nearby shopping centre. i didn't buy anything though cause i couldn't find anything that i feel like buying,haha. we went to a place where they sell local produce after that,and then went to jusco shopping centre to have lunch.

we left the place for singapore at 2pm. everyone were all tired and exhausted so we were all slping on the bus. home sweet home at 6.30pm :D
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now for the reflections part.

i think this trip was really fruitful and i enjoyed myself thoroughly. it was good for ms norlina to group us instead of letting us choose our own groups cause we get to interact with the others and get to know them better. this trip bonded all of us together and i really hope that everyone will be more committed to the prefectorial board after this. teamwork is an important factor for the board to function well,and i hv confidence in all the prefects that they will work together as a team for the well being of the board. all of us may face obstacles but as long as we stay positive and never give up,we're gonna brave through the darkest storms. man,i think i sound like mr reduan now,haha.

credit goes to haziqah and shareena for the pics [:

can we do it? yes we can!

2006-12-07T09:51:00.000+08:00

ok,i got this from someone's blog while i was blog surfing (:

Don't use the same name twice!

Name 1 person who plays soccer and 1 person who plays basketball.
1. Lewis
2. Alvin
Name 1 person plays a musical instrument and 1 person who doesn't.
3. Priscilla
4. Theresa
Name 1 person who's name starts with the letter J and 1 person whos name starts with the letter M.
5. Juvenal
6. Mun Ting
Name 1 person who likes rollar coasters and 1 person who doesn't.
7. Desmond
8. Jolyn
1 person who has the letter X in their screen name and 1 person who doesn't.
9. Xiang Yu (i can't think of any so since his name starts with x,i'll just put it down)
10. Bryan
Name 1 person who's in the grade above you and 1 person who's in the grade below you.
11. Li Fen
12. Trena
Name 1 person who lives the closest to you and 1 person who lives the farthest from you.
13. Pei Yi
14. Xiao Xian
Name 1 person who has a Xanga and 1 person who has a MySpace
15. Camilla
16. Ethel
Name 1 person who has braces and 1 person who wears contacts/glasses.
17. Jia Min
18. Loo Yee
Name 1 person over the age of 20 and 1 person under the age of 15.
19. Jaime
20. Eunice

Now for the questions..

Would 9 ever go out with 15?
LOL! i doubt they even know each other!
How long have you known 4?
3 years,knew her since i was in sec 1 (:
Does 1 have a special talent?
playing soccer?haha xD
Would 14 ever jump off a cliff?
nope,she wouldn't do silly things like this >.<
What kind of music does 7 listen to?
not very sure,perhaps rock,pop,r&b?
Do you talk to 11 a lot?
not really,but she's a great senior :D
When was the last time you saw 6?
after np dinner and dance.
Does 3 know 16?
yupp,of course =)
What's one word to describe 8?
clever!
What is 19's AIM screen name?
i'm not sure if she has AIM..
Have you ever kissed 2 or 1?
eww,no way! haha,later 5 will come after me!
Where does 5 go to school?
north vista sec.
Does 12 play any sports?
i don't think so..
Does 16 read a lot?
yes,i think so,cause her english is good! =]
How tall is 15?
haha,let's just say tall's not an apt choice of vocabulary here.
Does 17 have any brothers or sisters?
no idea?
Would 20 ever hook up with 18?
oh no! 18 is mine! hahaha =D

2006-12-03T20:33:00.000+08:00

hey everyone!

i'll be leaving for malaysia tmr for prefects adventure trip. will only be back on wed,so if there's anything,just leave a tag on my board or send an e-mail to me ya?thanks! (:

will update when i'm back! don't miss me xD

2006-12-02T23:28:00.000+08:00

Friday
we had 4 debate sessions yst. i didn't make any point of information or amendment though. the resolution that i co-submitted on the topic of palestinian refugees was debated today,and it was passed! haha,we were so happy,but i feel i didn't do much as a co-submitter. lithuania was asking me to make a speech in support of the reso and i agreed,but i told her that i'm unable to write the speech as i didn't get to see the reso beforehand so i need her help. so she told germany to write a speech for me,but in the end,there wasn't enough time for us to give our speech due to time constraints. i think germany didn't hv time to whip up another speech for me either,cause he had to write speeches for nepal,singapore and guyana too. haha,but our resolution still passed! [:

the debate session ended at 5.00pm. there is dance for all thimun participants today,so we met each other at the clock tower and then took a cab down to city hall. went to change and we took the shuttle bus to night safari. we had buffet dinner and the food was yummy! after that,we went to the function room to dance. it was like a dance floor,with disco lights and the music was very loud. actually,it's just like clubbing,except that this is only for all thimun participants and that no alcholic drinks were allowed. at first,we were feeling so out of place inside,cause everyone were dancing and we weren't. so sherilyn started to dance and we all followed her. all of us except hoe kin danced like crazy,haha. we were all super high and it was very fun. luckily alcholic drinks are not allowed,or not things would have gotten out of control.

Today
today's the last day of thimun,and we had the general assembly plenary session for the entire day. there were 6 resolutions to be debated on,1 frm each committee. the debate time for each resolution is only about 45 mins,which is really short as compared to the normal one which is about 90 mins to 120 mins. yupp,many funny and interesting things happened,but i shall not elaborate it here,cause there are too many to say. finally we had the closing ceremony at 4.15pm,and there was a performance by hwa chong string ensemble,followed by all the speeches. i think the best part was when the president of the general assembly play the piano! he sure can play super well,and everyone were cheering and clapping (:

THIMUN is finally over. learnt alot of things and i think it made me more interested in issues pertaining to the rest of the world. i'm simply amazed to see people of my age so concerned about world issues,knowing so much about it and trying their very best to fight for the rights of the country that they are representing. most importantly,i got to know where i stand and it kinda motivates me to further buck up on my english. and as looyee had mentioned in her blog,we have gotten the "slang disease" after listening to the rich-in-english-accent for 4 days :D

top 5 things i'll miss for sure: 1) the points of order,points of information,points of personal priviledge,points of personal enquiry etc. 2) refering to myself as "the delegate of ethiopia", 3) the american accents around, 4) wearing formal clothes everyday with court shoes, 5) the friends i've made there

credit goes to looyee and crystal for the pics =)

it's all about you;

2006-11-30T23:41:00.000+08:00

Wednesday
woke up at 6 in the morning and the first thing that came to my mind was: I don't wanna go for thimun. looyee,crystal,ethel,jia min,sherilyn and me met in compass at 7am and we took bus 156 from there. all of us were dressed in formal wear,so we were all wearing collared long sleeve blouse with skirt or pants. we really blend in well with those working adults,haha. reached hwa chong institution at about 9am,got our name tags from mr lim and we went straight into the different lecture rooms according to our committees to do lobbying. i didn't know anyone in my committee so i had to take the initiative to approach others and try to make friends with them. so after that,we started showing each other our resolutions. i co-submitted 2 resolutions- 1 is the forum on effects of atomic radiation whose main submitter is russia federation and the other is the forum on palestinian refugees whose main submitter is germany. the lobbying was for the entire day and we were all exhausted by 5pm. .

many things went thru my mind throughout the whole day. i was feeling very intimidated. i feel that i'm not even fit to go for this conference. everyone there speaks so fluently and they were all rich in english accent. many of them are from china and korea but they can speak so well,and why can't I?perhaps it's because of the fact that they study in international schools but i can't help but feel inferior. i feel i can't communicate with them properly and i can't really speak my mind out cause i'm afraid i'll say the wrong things. i was feeling so uncomfortable the whole day because i don't feel like myself. rahhhhh! how i wish i studied in an international school. i seriously need to improve my english =X

Today
woke up in the morning still dreading to go for thimun,but i told myself that today will be different frm yst. indeed,everything was way better than yst,it was sucha relief :D we started off with extended lobbying. oh well,there was nth much for us to do so we chatted with each other while the main submitter brought the resolution to the approval panel for it to be approved. got to know my friends better and we talked about more stuffs today =) after that was debate session. i didn't take part in any debates before so it's my first time. learnt lots of things and i really admire the way some people speak,it was fantastic,haha. i think the fun part was the passing of message slips. sometimes the debate gets so boring that we can just fall aslp anytime,so the only way to keep ourselves awake is to pass message slips to each other. of course,the message hv to be related to the topic that is being debated,but sometimes we just want to ask each other personal questions so we started using code language x) the funny thing was that,this RI guy told me that his friend took part in thimun last year,and there was this guy who wrote a message slip to a girl,it wasn't related to the topic at all but it was some sort of love letter. in the end,the admin staff passed the slip to the chair instead of the girl because it was not related to the topic and the chair read the message to the whole forum. of course,the guy was super embaressed,haha!

i learnt alot today,especially during the debate session. i couln't understand the procedures of a debate even after reading the notes,but today's session sort of clarified all my doubts. it feels totally different to experience the whole thing. i'm starting to enjoy this conference [:

2006-11-27T22:13:00.000+08:00

meetings,meetings and more meetings! thats wad i've been up to for the past week.

preparation for thimun is going on well,although we are still not very prepared,but at least all of us came up with our resolutions alrdy. hoe kin will be the ambassador and he'll be giving the opening speech. that's so cool,haha =D i'm still doing some last min research,hope that i can understand more abt the country that i'm representing(ethiopia),so at least i wouldn't be making a fool out of myself there. yupp,just hope that everything goes well and that our efforts wouldn't go to waste. to looyee: you're doing great and we all can see you are putting in alot of effort for your resolution. so try not to think that you haven't done enough alright?have confidence in yourself,we're all gonna go through this together [:

np dinner and dance is tmr. looking forward to it,but i don't wanna go in formal wear. i'm gonna wear a dress tmr and i bet i'm going to look weird =(

alright,many events coming up,hols is nvr gonna be boring with them :D
1) 28th nov: Np dinner and dance
2) 29th nov to 2nd dec: THIMUN
3) 4th dec to 6th dec: Prefects malaysia trip
4) 11th dec: Farewell party for Mdm Sarifah
5) 12th dec to 14th dec: 1E1'04 chalet
6) 15th dec to 17th dec: Family chalet
7) 18th dec to 21st dec: Np "Tour de force" course
8) 27th dec to 29th dec: Go on cruise with family

*fate can act in a curious way

2006-11-19T18:12:00.000+08:00

RAH! i'm doing my thimun resolution and i'm completely lost. totally got no idea how to write a proper reso. i followed the format of the sample reso that mr lim gave us but my reso is only one page long. thimun is next next week and i think we are still very unprepared for it. we have only come up with a brief reso when other schs are alrdy lobbying with each other. i think we are just not committed to do this whole thing. firstly,all of us have to attend our ccas and it's usually very hard for everyone to be present during meetings due to date and time clashes. secondly,the research part is one big barrier. there's so much research to do that i think we are all drowning in it,plus the fact that information from internet is limited,it's very hard for us to find the answers to the questions we have. frankly speaking,i don't know much about the issues related to ethiopia. hving a hard time doing my resolution now,someone pls help me!

*save me from this mess

2006-11-19T13:57:00.000+08:00

life this week is really hectic.

monday and tuesday i've been busy planning the urban hike for sec 1s and 2s with my np mates. we hv this event every year in np,it's something like amazing race around singapore and this yr it's our turn to plan (: we thought of all sorts of weird places for our juniors to go,shan't reveal too much now :]

wednesday morning i went to sch for a meeting on the prefects malaysia trip. seems like there's work for me to do again :D we split into committees and i'm the advisor for the programme and souvenirs committee. shareena will be the head of the committee. i'm sure she will do a good job,hope we can come up with all the proposals and stuffs by this coming wednesday. it's gonna be lots of work but i'm sure you can do it shareena =D after the meeting,i went for np meeting before heading home. then i met up with looyee,juvenal,cherlyn,pei yi and dudley at compass in the evening to go to wei jie's chalet. we were crapping alot on the way there and dudley was telling us about the teletubbies story,it was so scary and we all screamed in the bus,so loud that pei yi told me everyone were looking at us. haha,in the end dudley told us that he made up the story himself. rahhhhh! so we reached the chalet at around 7.45pm,ate some BBQ food,went to the beach for a walk and stayed in the room to play stress,carom,ps2. dad came to fetch me at around 11.30pm,i didn't stay overnight cause i still hv np the next day,the rest stayed though.

i was really worned out on thursday and friday. had the police knowledge course and homefront security course at hta(home team academy). woke up at 5am and met up with my np mates in compass at 6 plus. it was really tiring,cause hta is at choa chu kang. so we had to take 161 frm seng kang all the way to woodlands interchange,then take mrt to choa chu kang interchange and take bus 172 to hta. it took us an hour plus to reach there. the course was from 9am to 5pm on both days,and it was very boring. we sat there listening to one lecture after another,but no doubt we got to learn alot more about the law and SPF. so now i know by slapping people or hitting people,it's against the law,under section 323,cap 224- voluntarily cauing hurt. although it's not seizable,but still considered against the law. lol,sounds so chim right? haha,but i think it's kinda cool (: there's still alot more like causing grievous hurt to others and they are all put under different sections. i can't imagine a lawyer hv to memorise all of them. haha.

*it's only the beginning

2006-11-11T19:13:00.000+08:00

I LOVE 3E2! :]

10/11/2006 - a day to remember (:

we had our class outing at sentosa yst,and it was simply great! had lots and lots of fun. thanks to mdm sarifah who organised the trip :D

had lessons in the morning but i guess none of us have the mood to study,haha. firstly,it's the last day of our bridging course and secondly,we were all too excited about going to sentosa xD
yupp,so the last lesson we had was chemistry and we begged ms chang to release us early,and she did! we were all too restless and making alot of noise,so i guess she had no choice but to release us 10 mins earlier. haha.

when we were released,some of us went to change into our class tee while some others went to rp to buy lunch for the class. all of us ate KFC. yummy! after that,we boarded the bus. on the bus,pris and me were folding hearts using the extra straws from KFC,lol. so after about half an hour,we finally reach sentosa,though it was raining,it did not spoil our mood.

we walked to cinemania to watch the 2D movie. it was a motion stimulator and the ride was nice =D there were 2 parts,one is on dinosaur and the other on roller coaster. i sat with pris,loo yee and juv and the whole class were screaming like crazy,especially loo yee,haha. next,we headed to the bus stop to take a bus to 4D Magix. the whole bus were filled with 3e2 ppl and we were making a hell lot of noise,haha,i think the tourists in the bus couldn't stand it also xD the 4D movie was on pirates and it was kinda scary because of the effects. like when the captain fall into the water,we could feel the water being splashed on us,and when the crabs were released from the cage,we could feel it crawling on our feets. there were still more,like the bees and the bats part,haha.

after the movie,we proceeded on to play luge! after 15 mins of queue,it's finally our turn! it was very very fun,and i wanna play it again! haha,after that,we all went to siloso beach and that's where all of us went crazy :D we were building sandcastles and thorwing sand at each other. daphne pushed me into the water and i was wet from head to toe,luckily i brought extra clotes =) then we buried bryan in the sand and we shaped him into a muscular guy,haha,a pity we didn't take a picture if him. played there for around an hour plus and it started to rain,so all of us went to wash up. showered ourselves and then we met at the shelter. it was still raining heavily so some of us bought ice-cream while waiting for the rain to stop. looking at the others eat ice-cream,cherine and i couldn't resist the temptation so we decided to buy one to share (: the rain finally stop and we went to take the chair lift. bryan lost his ticket and the worker said he have pay $4 to take the chair lift. so all of us begged the worker and he finally agreed to let him take the chair lift without paying,provided we sing a song. so,the whole class sang "rain rain go away,come again another day" :] it was nice to take the chair lift and just enjoy the beautiful scenery. i sat with xiao xian,juv and looyee. while on the chair lift,we were all very "high" and we started to sing songs! old chinese songs,haha. then the whole class played the bombing game on the chair lift. we shouted to one another and started bombing each other,weeeee! =D after that,we all waited for the bus to take us back to the visitor departure center.

from there,all of us walked to vivo city. the whole class thanked mdm sarifah together (: on the way to vivo,we held hands and sang songs again,haha. talked alot and as usual,we were making alot of noise =) we took class photo outside vivo,and from there,we parted. some of us went home while the rest decided to stay at vivo for dinner. i stayed for dinner and gosh,vivo was very very crowded. at first,we wanted to eat carls jr. but as there were 10+ of us,we couldn't find any seats. in the end,we decided to take away food from banquet and go up to the sky terrace to eat. we sat at the stairs to have our dinner. it was alrdy 9pm after we finish our dinner. so,xiang yu,lip young,gh,ck,ly,pris,juv,cher and me decided to go home. the rest stayed for a lil longer though. all of us slept in the mrt cause we were very tired.

i enjoyed myself thoroughly yst. had a good time in sentosa with 3e2! love all of you! of course,not forgetting our dearest form and co-form,mdm sarifah and mr rashidin! you guys rock! :D

pictures below :]

those memories will stay with me ; forever

2006-11-07T17:19:00.000+08:00

last week was a rather lousy week for me,in the sense that there are just too many things happening at the same time and i don't know how to cope with it. i'm feeling much better now after those encouragements. instead of giving up when faced with a few setbacks,i think i should just make the best out of everything. i know i'm not the only one who is facing this,so perhaps i shouldn't be too affected by those stuffs. i admit i was very hurt after knowing about it,but come to think of it,we should all learn how to accept criticisms and comments. maybe only through these comments,we get to know where are our weaknesses and faults,from there,we try to improve on it :D

we had our kayaking lesson on thurs,and it was the last lesson. i just love the capsize drill (: we learnt about the t-shaped rescue which is to be done by 3 people. one of them is the victim,the other 2 being a main rescuer and an assistant rescuer. we formed into groups are 3s to practise doing the different roles,and i was with theresa and joey. hong hui,chong ee and kah wai were in a group. chong ee was the victim,kah wai the main rescuer and hong hui the assistant rescuer. so chong ee did the capsize drill and kah wai was suppose to rescue him by emptying the water in his kayak and turning it back so that chong ee could get in the kayak again. and as kah wai was emptying the water,chong ee did some funny actions and it made kah wai laugh till his kayak capsized too. then,aaron and hong hui went to rescue kah wai while theresa and me went to rescue chong ee. it ends up that chong ee did the same stupid action and it made me laugh until my kayak capsized also. haha,in the end,aaron and hong hui capsized themselves too. lol,and it all started in an attempt to rescue chong ee =X but anyway,all of us passed the course and managed to get our 1-star,woots! =D i think i'll be going for the 2-star course either during this hols or after o lvls next year. yay! i love kayaking! :]

there's the Subaru WRX Competition going during the weekend at ngee ann city. by the way,if you guys don't know what it is,it's a competition whereby the competitors have to put their hands on the car and the one who endures the longest wins a Subaru WRX. they are only given a 5 min break every 6 hours so you can imagine how tough it is. lol,alright,back to the topic. so they needed people there to promote coffee and i went to work there with pris,theresa,milfred and pris's cousin felicia. we were promoting Super Rich Coffeemix,haha. sat was our first day of work and our shift was from 7am to 4pm. we reached at 6.50am and went to change into our shirts (we had to wear the t-shirt provided by the company). there were many people there queuing up for the registration for the competition,so we started out by going around to serve the people with samples of the coffee. the sales only started to come in during the afternoon. it isn't wasy,cause you have to keep repeating the same thing over and over again to all of the customers. now i know why people always say "the customer's always right". no matter how rude they are or how bad their attitude is,we still got to put a smile on our face and be nice. we started work slightly later at 8am on sunday and maybe because we were more experienced then,we managed to sell more of the products =) by the end of the 2 days,my feet were aching very badly,and i think it was because of my footwear. we had to wear covered shoes and i wore flats. didn't want to wear sport shoes cause it looks weird. anyway,it was a wonderful experience,although it ain't easy but the feeling of earning your own money is simply great =] i'm currently looking for a job so if anyone of you have any jobs at hand,do recommend me! thanks! :D

when all you got to keep is strong
move along, move along like I know you do
and even when your hope is gone
move along, move along just to make it through

2006-10-31T21:20:00.000+08:00

went for 1 star kayaking course with np mates last thurs,it was super fun and i got sunburnt,haha,just imagine being under the sun for 6 hrs =X i guess i'm not fit enough cause i've got muscles aches after that. also had np trg last sat,it was the last trg for this yr. had games and all that,the usual stuffs.

actually,i'm not in a very good mood these few days. i'm just too affected by everything that's been happening around me. i've been thinking quite alot lately. i'm just not fit to be the vice-head. i didn't lead the prefectorial board well and i can't even bond all the prefects together. perhaps it was because of this that all these things are happening to the prefectorial board. i really didn't do my job well as a vice-head,oh well,i'm just not a good leader. i feel so demoralised. so many times that i broke down because of this,sometimes i really feel like giving up,but i decided to hold on,and time and again,i told myself that i must do my best for the board. however,after all these that hv happened recently,i really dunno what to do now.

i'm lost ; very.

suddenly the moment's gone
and all your dreams are upside down
and you just want to change the way
the world goes round

2006-10-30T22:51:00.000+08:00

why must everything come crashing down at the same time?
rahhhhhh.
feeling very emo now :(

*it all seems to be an illusion

2006-10-24T23:43:00.000+08:00

went to vivo city with parents and sisters yst. we headed to the food court first to have our dinner. the food court was kinda unique. the whole ambience of it was like singapore in the 1960s. the stalls were made to look like those in the 1960s,and the music played were those old chinese songs. food there was nice,but very very expensive. i bought a bowl of laksa for $6.90 =X after dinner,we went to the sky terrace. the night view is very very nice,and the breeze is so cooling. the sea view is beautiful,i love that place alot (: we didn't manage to shop much,cause it was quite late and most of the shops were closing,but nvm,i shall go again another day and shop for the whole day,it'll be nice =D we headed home at 10pm,and guess what,we got stuck in the carpark for 30 mins beacause there was a traffic jam in there >.<

today went to east coast with my family. dad bought lunch and we went there to eat. nice breeze and finally,there's fresh air,no haze! :D so my sisters brought their hmwk there to do cause their exams are not over yet,and i brought my chinese mock papers there too. didn't really hv the mood to do though,wanted to go cycling but my sis had to do her work,so nobody to accompany me. haha,had no choice but to do the mock papers.

oh well,i've been spending quite alot of time with my family these few days :D and i feel happy about it cause i know that i'm drifting apart from my family. i haven't really been spending time with them since the start of this year,the only exception is when we have dinner together on sundays. i always put studies,cca and friends as my priorities,but now,i think my family should be in one of my priorities too. i feel so bad when my mum say that i always don't put aside any time for them.

i used to think that my parents don't understand me and they do not care about me at all. the things that happened a few yrs ago strained my relationship with my dad,but now,i can see that he's trying very hard to close the gap between the both of us. mum had alrdy forgive him,so i think i shouldn't think abt it anymore. on the surface it seems that my dad doesn't care for me,but after hearing what mum told me recently,i know that he cares alot all the while,maybe it's just because he doesn't show it out. for a period of time,i thought that my family is going to be broken,although it's like 2 yrs alrdy,i'm glad that everything is over. i just suddenly feel so blessed. thank you mum and dad for everything (:

*make that smile come back and shine just like it used to be

2006-10-20T22:29:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE! i'm back (: my apologies for not updating my blog,i was kinda lazy,haha.

ok,results are out,so i shall do a reflection on it.

English- B3
my target was to get at least an A2,but i got a B3 instead. i am very disappointed in myself,and i think mr lim is disappointed in me too. at first,i thought it was because of paper 1 that i scored badly,so i was complaining to him abt how much i regretted choosing the narrative qn,but he told me it was paper 2 that pulled my marks down. i don't know why everyone did so badly for paper 2,when all of us thought it was a rather easy paper. i failed the compre part,and it was my summary that helped pull my marks up. yeah,i cried in front of mr lim,which is so embaressing. i hate to cry in front of teachers because it makes me look like a fool,but i don't know why i cannot control my tears when it comes to bad results. well,but i am happy for my class,cause its 100% pass for english [:
HCL- A2
i'm suprised i got an A2,haha. it's the first time i got an A for chinese,so i'm quite satisfied. this shall boost up my morale for the upcoming chinese o lvls =)
E Maths - B4
i don't know why i just suck in e maths. lol,i got an A1 for paper 1 but a D7 for paper 2,so combined is B4. rahhhh,same situation as mid-year,failed paper 2,and i think it was because i am very weak in graphs =X
A Maths - A2
don't really have much comments abt the paper,except that i didn't do as well as mid-yr.
Physics - C6
i passed physics!!!!!!!! by 1 mark,lol. but it's a miracle that i manage to pass. physics is a total nightmare to me. mum have decided to sign me up for physics tuition. think she's pretty worried for me,after seeing me fail so miserably for every test,haha. i hope tuition helps,but most importantly,i think i should try to get myself to be interested in physics first,cause i don't think i will be able to score well if i hate the subject.
Chemistry - C6
i don't know what happen to my chemistry. i got a B3 for mid-yr exams and now i got a C6. maybe i haven't put in enough effort in studying for it. i'm sorry ms chang :(
Pure Geography - A1
after all,i didn't waste my brain cells memorising those stuffs (: but i guess i could have done better for the MCQ.
Combined Humanities - C6
this is bad. i think the only problem is the lack of time management. i didn't have time to complete both the social studies and history papers. for social studies,i lost 16 marks because i didn't finish 2 source-based qns. as for history,i lost 13 marks for not doing 1 of the structured essay question,but nvm,i didn't study much for history,so i deserve it.

alright,enough about results. now that exams are over,it means that CCAs will resume,and this will really keep me busy. with prefect stuffs,np stuffs,THIMUN and NYAA,there's no doubt that my hols will be packed. haha,i kinda like it this way. i don't know why but i'd rather spend my hols occupied with these activities,than to rot at home everyday. i just wanna occupy myself with things to do,and keep myself busy. i'm not being saddistic or what,but at least this way,i get to spend my hols more meaningfully,knowing that i did not waste my time doing nothing :D

so much confusion circling inside my head
what this one and that one said
its all an illusion

2006-10-12T00:31:00.000+08:00

today's our last paper,chemistry. well,although i think i'm not gonna do well in it,but i'm still happy,cause EXAMS ARE OVER! :D :D :D

finally an end to the endless nights of staying up late to mug and mental block outs. yay!!! there's gonna be a 1 week break for me before going back to sch on the 18th. results will be out on the 19th. i'm not eager to know any of my results at all and i don't wish to get back my results. i think i'll be utterly disappointed in myself cause i don't think i'm gonna do well this time,and i have only myself to blame for neglecting my studies due to my commitments. well,i shall let this be a lesson learnt to me,hopefully it will not happen the nxt exams. i really got to learn how to manage my time well,cause my time management seriously sucks =X

now that final year exams are over,i have to start preparing for my chinese o lvl paper in 2 weeks time. there isn't much to study but i'm gonna brush up my compre skills by doing chinese comprehension everyday. i hope it helps,haha. i must score well,cause the criteria to continue taking hcl nxt year is to score at least an A1 or A2 for chinese o level,so i really hv to buck up! i'm not going to let 3 years of my efforts of studying hcl go to waste just like that (:

so here we stand
anchored in hope
letting the rain wash away every fear
stars in the sky
twinkle and shine
i pray they won't disappear

2006-10-06T22:19:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL TO ALL! :D

physics and history paper today. it's like the worst combination of papers,cause both subjs are pretty tough and requires one to memorise alot of things. i realize that i couldn't juggle both subjs at the same time,cause i tend to concentrate on one subj and neglect the other.

yst was hcl paper and it turned out to be not as bad i thought it was. in fact the paper was rather easy,especially the compo for paper 1 cause we did the topic before (: yupps,after the paper,i went to look for ms chen to ask her some physics qns before rushing home to study. i started studying for physics at around 3pm,all the way to 11.30pm,of course with my dinner break in between and 1 hr of tv time. by then,i still had 2 chpts of physics left and i haven't started on history at all. at first,i didn't want to slp cause i haven't finish studying,but i was too lethargic,so i decided to slp for awhile. i slept at 11.30pm and set my alarm to wake up at 1am,thinking that i can study the 2 chpts of physics by 3am and i will still be left with 3 hrs to study for history before preparing to go to sch. in the end,my alarm wasn't working,so it did not ring and i didn't wake up at 1am. woke up at 5am instead,and i really freaked out when i saw the time. i panicked and i didn't know what to do.

it was really a test for me emotionally. i had to study as much as i can in the short amount of time i'm left with,but at the same time i had to battle the fears i had in me-the fear that my mind would just blank out when i see the paper. i went to sch,trying to study as much as i could but nothing seems to get in,there are many moments i tried to control my tears while studying,until i finally broke down before the papers. yes,i had a mental breakdown,and it was the first time i was feeling so fearful of a paper. i just cried everything out. yeah,i know its stupid but i would rather let it all out before the papers than just break down during the paper. mr reduan saw me crying and he consoled me. he told me that he know what i was undergoing and how i felt,somehow,i felt much better after what he told me. so i told myself that i got to face it,whether or not i studied for it,i still got to take the papers.

as expected,i didn't know how to do many qns in the physics paper,and for history,the topics that came out for the structured essay qns were on china and germany. unfortunately,i studied on the weimar government for germany but it didn't come out. both the qns under germany were on the nazi party. in the end,i chose the qn on germany cause i had no idea what the other 2 qns were talking abt. for the 1st part of the qn, i just wrote down everything that i know but i didn't do the second part,cause i didn't understand what the question was talking abt. yupps,and there goes my history and physics marks.

finally,this torturing week is over. and after what happened,i learnt that studying last min would not help at all. it was because i left everything to last min studying that i had difficulty coping with it. just let this be a lesson learnt to me,i'm going to be more consistent next time and make sure that this will not happen again =) i haven't been being myself these few days,guess i'm too stressed up over exams. everyone faces setbacks,and i'm not gonna let it stop me frm being myself,i'm gonna find the real JANICE back =]

6 papers down,4 more to go. work hard people,and we're gonna get promoted together. esp 3e2,we will and must go to sec 4 together =D anyway,it's very hazy these few days,so take care everybody!

5 more days to end of exams! yay!!! xD

cause time has made me strong
i'm starting to move on

2006-10-04T19:44:00.000+08:00

oh well,i had such high hopes on a maths paper,but i guess now my hopes are all dashed. i got the whole qn on coordinate geometry wrong just because i couldn't find one of the coordinates of the points. so,i lost 8 marks. plus the other qns that i didn't know how to do,i alrdy lost a total of 10 plus marks,and this excludes all the careless mistakes i'm going to make.

as for ss,it wasn't any better than a maths,in fact,it was worse. there were 4 parts to the source-based qns but i only managed to finish 2 parts of it. i didn't hv time to do the last 2 parts,and it costed me 14 marks. btw,the total marks for the whole paper was 50 marks. so now,the max. mark i can get will be 36,and i know this is impossible cause i can't be scoring full marks for structured essay and the first 2 parts of source-based qns that i attempted.

after today's paper,i went to hougang interchange to make my ez-link card(i lost my wallet on monday),and then went straight home,thinking that i could study physics and history since its hcl paper tmr and there isn't much to study. but i fell aslp! i slept for 4 hrs and wasted my whole afternoon slping when i could hv used the time to study,rahhhhh!!! not only that,i slept at 11 plus yst night and set my alarm to wake up at 1am this morning to study,in the end,i didn't wake up at 1,i woke up at 3am instead. i'm such a pig. i'm just so angry at myself,why is it that i must waste my time slping when i can use the time to do more important things like studying?it just triggers the feeling of self-hate.i hate myself :(

i don't know if i'll still be able to survive through the whole of this exam period. there are just too many disappointments that keeps taking away each and every bit of my hope to do well for this end-of-yr exam. i feel so hopeless now.

feels like we're caught in a trance
maybe it's all in the mind
but we've gotta find a way to leave all of this trouble behind

2006-09-29T19:46:00.000+08:00

english paper was totally screwed up,esp paper 1.

i regretted not starting on situational writing first.
i regretted choosing the narrative qn.
i regretted not managing my time well.

many regrets for this paper,and many i-shd-hv-done-that thoughts filled my mind after the paper. i know that i haven't tried my best.

after thinking abt it for so long,i decided to choose the narrative qn over the argumentative one for paper 1. i chose the one on personal recount and the qn was to write abt an incident when i defended a friend and explain why i did so. i spent around 55 mins on my compo,but i didn't write a good one. i tried to include the techniques that mr lim taught us and i guess that's the reason why i spent so much time on it. when mr lim came in to invigilate our class,he kept walking pass my desk to look at my compo,i felt very pressurized,and for the whole 5 mins,i couldn't think of anything to write,my mind just went blank. wasted 5 mins just like that. so,i was left with 50 mins for situational writing. there were so many points that i wanna write but i didn't hv the time to. when there were only 5 mins left,i still had 2 more paragraphs to go,so i had no choice but to hurry up finish my 2nd last paragraph and den end off.

paper 2 was still not that bad,just that there were quite a few inferential qns and i spent quite some time answering it. i think i wudn't be scoring well for vocab,as usual,cause my vocab is not good. as for summary,i was left with 25 mins to do it butd luckily i finished it on time,didn't hv extra time to check my work though.

i think i'm not gonna do well this time,am so disappointed in myself,but i shd be happy that its not o levels,so at least,it's not the end yet (: i will never make these mistakes again in my nxt paper. i gotta learn how to manage my time well,and perhaps,to be more relaxed. i was too tensed up today,and i think that's why i couldn't organise my thoughts well.

*and i feel like i'm living the worst day over and over again

2006-09-26T22:39:00.000+08:00

all that is on my mind now is studies,nth but studies. i hope i can put everything aside,and just concentrate purely on studies.

exams are giving me alot of pressure. i'm really worried that i'll do badly this time,cause i totally lost the confidence in myself. people ard me are all studying so hard,and i feel that wad i've studied as compared to them is just a teeny weeny bit of it,maybe not even 5% of wad they've studied. i know i shdn't compare myself with others but i just can't help but feel very inferior. i dunno if i can finish my revision on time. it's really tiring,attending sch frm 7.40am to 2.40pm,den going to cp burger king to study with pris everyday after sch till 7.30pm,and when i reach home,i bathe,hv dinner and its back to studies again. i have no choice but to force myself to study after sch no matter how tired i m cause i know if i come home early,i will slp instead of study,and this will be a total waste of time.

english paper is this friday,and i hv alot of fear in it. these few english lessons,mr lim had been teaching us narrative writing skills,and he told us that the reason why he is drilling us so hard on narrative writing is because he wants us to choose the narrative qn for paper 1. however,i'm quite uncomfortable with it,cause i know that i wudn't score well writing narrative essays. i always prefer to write argumentative essays or the discussion ones,but mr lim told me that he dun encourage me to choose that. he said that i'm not gonna do well if i choose argumentative or discussion. but the problem is,i think i will score even badly if i write a narrative essay,cause i'm not good at it. i'm really confused now,i dunno whether to take mr lim's advice or just make my own decision. i'm afraid that if i didn't follow his adivse,i will regret it,but at the same time,i dun hv confidence to write a good narrative essay. mr lim's intention of teaching us all the techniques to write a good narrative essay was to boost up our confidence lvl,but instead,it was the opposite for me. take for instance,he asked us to write introduction paragraphs on the topic "disaster" for homework,because he wants us to practice the skills he taught us. all my friends could come up with such wonderful orientations using those techniques he taught,but i couldn't. this makes me lose faith in myelf. i'm afraid that i'll be tempted to write the argumentative or discussion essay when i see the questions,i'm afraid that i'll give in to temptations,and that's wad happened to me during mid-yr exam. i dun even know how to help myself now. i feel so helpless. if i fail my english,i will get retained,and i certainly dun want that to happen to me :(

breakdown,
i can't take this,
i need somewhere to go

2006-09-23T11:29:00.000+08:00

everything is just not going right. i didn't do well for most of my tests,mum hv been scolding me plus things are not going on well in prefectorial board. rahhhhhh. why is it that everything seems to come crashing down on me at this pt of time?why is it that all these always happen when exams are just round the corner?i dun wanna let my personal stuffs affect my studies. wad i really need to do now is to concentrate on my studies and to prepare for end of yr exams. but with all these,i really cannot put in 100% of my heart and soul into my studies. i tried,but i will still be bothered by it,somehow; in one way or another. this feeling sucks.

*her hopes were dashed

2006-09-20T16:15:00.000+08:00

EOY EXAM TIMETABLE
29/9- English Paper 1&2
4/10- Social Studies, A.maths
5/10- HCL Paper 1&2
6/10- Physics, Elect History
9/10- E.maths Paper 1, Pure Geog
10/10- E.maths Paper 2
11/10- Chemistry

ccas hv stopped starting frm this week due to eoy exams,and i can finally concentrate on my studies (: but i haven't studied much since the start of this week. only managed to study abit of physics. maybe i procrastinate too much,or i just lack the self-discipline to sit down and study..argh! my mum hv been nagging at me abt my studies,saying that if i dun work hard enough,i'm gonna fail my eoy exams. i'm really afraid that i'll be retained,and all these are scaring me,alot.

chemistry is a total nightmare to me,and i dun hv the confidence to sit for chem paper..the topics that we studied for 1st semester were still alright,but those in 2nd semester were difficult,maybe not to my friends,but to me it was very difficult. yah,and i hv to admit that i'm really lousy at both my sciences :( so i'm putting very very high hopes on my a maths,cause i guess it's the easiest subj to score,hehe..since i'm weak in both sciences,i really gotta score well for a maths,e maths,english,hcl,combined humans and pure geog in order to do well..i hope that i'll be able to get <14 for L1R5 :D

hold on,if you feel like letting go
hold on,it gets better than you know
don't stop looking you're one step closer
don't stop searching it's not over..hold on

2006-09-14T18:58:00.000+08:00

JANICE IS VERY TIRED :(

today's just another boring day in sch. mr lim didn't come so it was free period for english. i'm so glad that mr tan is back,finally. haha,he taught us chpt 13 for e maths all over again,cause almost the whole class didn't understand wad the relief teacher was teaching,lol. chem lesson was bad. ms chang gave us a quiz on oxidation & reduction and i didn't know how to do ALL of the qns cause i've been missing quite a few chem lessons. this is bad,very bad..i really got to buck up cause final yr exams is in 3 weeks time. den there was history extra lessons after sch,and because of this,i couldn't accompany theresa to cp. i feel bad,cause i promised to go cp with her today to buy some stuff. sorry theresa =X history lessons ended at 4.40pm..i almost fell aslp during the lesson,i was very worn out.

well,i think thats all..am gonna sleep for awhile now before i study for tmr's e maths test..bye! and to all 3e2 peeps,good luck for e maths test (:

cause there's something in the way you look at me
it's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
you make me believe that there's nothing
in this world I can't be
i never know what you see but there's
something in the way you look at me

2006-09-10T17:30:00.000+08:00

alright. gala dinner was totally screwed up,and it was all because of the rain.
we(prefects) reported at 3pm in our blazer suit on friday. mr reduan gave us a briefing followed by mr mok..after that,those prefects not sitting at vip table had their dinner,while those sitting at the vip table went to help mr ng bring down the candles and put them on the different tables. after that,at ard 6pm,the guests and students started coming in and we went to do ushering..the whole event started at abt 7pm,and the guest of honour was the minister of defence mr teo chee hean..he is super tall,haha (: first there was a speech by mr lim,followed by kernel chan and den by the minister..after all the speeches,the sch presented souvenirs to the minister and the dinner started..we were sitting at the vip table right in front,so we had to eat with our blazers on,and it was really troublesome..the first dish was served followed by the second..den,it started to rain very heavily..me and pei yi ran to the foyer to get the umbrella to shelter the minister but by the time we reached the parade sq,the minister was in the shelter alrdy. both of us felt guilty,cause mrs yim told us that if it rains,we're suppose to make sure that the minister is sheltered but we were too slow..haha..so everybody moved up to the hall and lecture room..there were alrdy tables there,it took quite some time for everyone to settle down..the rain "destroyed" everything..all the utensils were soaked in the rain,including the drinks and all that..so there was a delay in the whole event..the waiters and waitress had to collect the cups and wash them again so it could be used..as for the utensils,some tables had to use disposable ones as there weren't enough of it..and den,all the prefects started becoming waiters and waitresses,including those prefects sitting at the vip table..mr mok asked us to help serve food and drinks. actually it was quite fun to serve the food also,a very good experience i would say,haha..but there were some confusion,cause some of us served the wrong food to the wrong tables,we served chinese food to muslim tables =X yupps,and the whole event ended at ard 10.30pm..there was a short debrief for the prefects and we were dismissed. after which,pei yi,pris and me went to rp mac to hv a drink before going home..reached home at 12am,totally exhausted. i really wanna thank those sec 1 and 2 prefects who helped out at gala dinner. you guys did a great job. thank you very much! :D

many things happened recently. many misunderstandings,many disappointments. i tried hard to make things alright,but i failed. i cried,again.

*the tears hidden behind the smile

2006-09-08T09:34:00.000+08:00

time really flies,and the 1 week holiday is ending soon..how i wish i hv another week more,so i dun hv to wake up so early everyday to go to sch =X but seriously,i miss sch!!! looking forward to going back to sch on monday :D

had my haircut yst. after that,i went to sch for np meeting,and so many ppl commented on my hair..they keep saying that i look so auntie. wadever. haha,my hair will grow back k,so just wait (: after meeting,i went home and den went out agn to hv steamboat dinner with theresa,pris,hong hui,aaron,hao zhi,kang cheng,chong ee and tai hong..haha,had lots of fun. after dinner,theresa,pris and me watched the guys play pool for awhile before we decided to head home..reached home at 12am. tired but fun day =)

today's a busy day for me..proj,np meeting and gala dinner. i so look forward to the gala dinner..it's a grand event and i think we will enjoy it =] wanna see how my friends dress too,yupp..will update more probably when i get home tonight (:

2006-09-03T19:31:00.000+08:00

i received an e-mail recently and attached to it are photos of children that are so skinny that their bones and ribcage can be seen..their countries are suffering from famines and droughts and they do not hv food to eat. some of them even had to go to the extent of drinking cow's urine and eating cow faeces,for a simple reason,which is to survive. after reading this mail,i realized how fortunate i am,and that there are many ppl out there who are not as lucky as me..sometimes,we're just blinded by our own selfish nature and interests that we are unsensitive to the sufferings ard us..ppl at the other end of the world are struggling to live on and here we are,complaining abt everything. perhaps human beings are borned to be like this..when we are at our comfort zone,we do not cherish wad we hv and take everything for granted..we will start to regret only when we lose those things..the reason why i'm blogging abt all these is because i hope that everybody will learn how to cherish the things that they hv,and most importantly,to cherish everyone ard them..i just feel so much for those children,they are children after all and shd hv the right to live on. i sincerely pray that all these children are alleviated from theirs sufferings..

i've decided to look on the positive side of things..i realized that there's no pt if i keep thinking abt things that hv alrdy happened..we cannot change the past,but at least we can decide on our own future..stress and pressure is just part and parcel of life,the impt thing is to learn how to adapt to it,cope with it and not let it be an obstacle in our lives..wadever that happens,life still hv to go on,so like shaun said,i shdn't let things that happened in the past get me down. i shall put those things at the back of my mind and just move on (: to all my friends who hv encouraged me in one way or another after reading my previous post,i wanna thank all of u,for those encouragements and advice =]

finally,the sch hols are here,it's the time for me to catch up with my sch work and of course, to rest!!! haha..i'm suffering frm serious slp deprivation,haven't been getting enough slp since the term started..yupp,i'm planning to finish up all my holiday assignments and hopefully to start my revision for end year exams..shall blog again when i'm free,till then..ciaos :D

come away with me,to the CITY OF DREAMS-

2006-09-02T00:54:00.000+08:00

today's teacher's day,so firstly,i wanna wish all teachers A HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY! :D

had teachers' day celebrations yst..the concert wasn't really nice,cause there were only performance put up by the string ensemble and drama..after the concert,me and my np mates went to give the presents to the teacher officers before theresa,pris,hh,aaron,gerard,xiang yu,lip young and me went to kovan to hv our lunch. haha,we crapped alot on the way..had a really good laugh (:

i've been thinking alot lately..i know that i'm not a good leader and cannot do a good job in leading the prefectorial board,i'm also not a good nco in npcc and perhaps i'm not fit to be one too. looking back at everything that happened recently,i ask myself whether it was all worth it. i had to sacrifice so much of my time to do all these,but is it worth it?i'm not saying that i've done alot or contributed alot but seriously,i'm getting sick & tired of all the pressure i get. my parents are complaining abt me spending too much time on these activities,my teachers are saying that there is a drop in standard since we took over the prefectorial board,and also,many things hv happened in np,which i shall not elaborate..most improtantly,my results are deproving because i really do not hv the time for my studies..i know studies shd be my top priority but it seems like i'm putting cca as my top priority now. i dunno why but i seem to be running away from studies,i try to give myself all sorts of excuses not to study..like i'm tired and stuff. the sight of books just freaks me out..whenever i try to sit down and study,i'll end up doing other stuffs..argh!!! i'm such a failure..i hv also been neglecting my friends due to my hectic schedule,i really wish to spend more time with them. perhaps that explains why i'm drifting apart from them..i feel that i dun fit in my class,maybe it's because i always come late for lessons and leave early due to duties,i dun really hv much time to talk to my classmates..somehow,i feel so out of place. sighs.

if only you understood me*

2006-08-22T21:00:00.000+08:00

oh well,it's the start of another stressful week again. i hv 6 tests this week-chinese,a maths,physics,english,history and chem. i took my physics and a maths test today..a maths was still okay i guess,but physics was horrbile..i think i'm gonna fail it again,cause i left the last pg of the paper blank,had no idea how to do that qn at all..i've been failing almost all my physics tests. that's bad. rahhhhhhh.

i miss going to m&m (in case u dunno,it's an animal home). it's fun to help out there every sunday,but i'm sad that i can't go there frm this week onwards,cause my mum do not want me to miss my religious class because of this. i'm definitely going to miss the dogs there,love playing with them so much,they're just so friendly and cute.
i miss eno the belgium shepherd.
i miss zenden and zickle the shih tzus.
i miss ahgros the siberian husky.
i miss tiger the german shepherd.
i miss mile the chiwawa.
i miss the dogs there :(

i'm hoping that i can go back there to help out again after my end yr exams,perhaps during the dec hols,am looking forward to it. yupps,here are some pics taken at the animal home. enjoy :D

2006-08-16T23:53:00.000+08:00

national day is over.
the parade in sch was quite ok..i wudn't say that the marching was good,but at least nth cropped up =) it was a wonderful experience being in the goh contingent. we felt so happy when the sch applauded and cheered for us when we marched in,our hardwork did pay off (: had a fun time during all the trgs,and of course,on the actual day itself =]

oh yes! the fireworks on national day was beautiful..watched it with pris,aaron,chong ee and yong sheng..sad that i didn't get to watch the one on 12/8. it's the last day of the fireworks festival and i wanted to watch the fireworks together with my np friends..unfortunately,i was sick on that day :( had fever and a very bad sore throat,i lost my voice that day..so i didn't join them,wad a pity..

i got back my chem test today,i flunked it. haven't been doing very well in my studies lately..perhaps wad my parents say are really true,my cca and all the other extra activites are affecting my studies. i've been trying real hard to cope,but it's difficult..sometimes,i really feel like giving up..but it's the ppl ard who made me press on. a big THANK YOU to all my friends who never fail to be there for me when i needed them..thanks alot :D

cause i've got you to make me feel stronger
when the days are off and an hour feels much
longer yeah cause i've got you oh to make me feel better
when the nights are off it'll be easier together

2006-07-31T23:18:00.000+08:00

short post before i go to sleep (:

yupps,
I'M SO HAPPY TODAY!!!
I'M FEELING SO RELAXED,
I'M ON THE TOP OF THE WORLD!!!
lol. i'm going crazy..haven't felt so stress-free for so many days..
gosh..

haha,finally the tug-of-war thing is over.
i feel so relieved :D
it was quite successful,everything went according to the plan,
except that it was kinda messy cause the noise level was too high,haha..

went to watch the NDP preview with theresa and mun ting on sat..
hong hui gave us the tickets.
THANKS alot hong hui XD
the preview was great,
their marching was so perfect..
if only we could march like them,
hehe..
and the fancy drills were so super nice can..
i envy those who get to learn fancy drills,
i'm so jealous of them =X
hope that i can get a chance to learn it one day =)
one more thing,
i simply LOVE the fireworks..
it was fantastic..haha..
i wish i can get the tickets for the actual day and go watch it again..

MY ISLAND HOME
This is my home
She's everything to me
Grace and beauty
In all that you see
My island home
Wherever I may be
I never will forget her
Nor will she forget me

Chorus ^
And I will sing
A song of home
A land of peace
Where dreams are born everyday
My home
Wherever I may be
I believe
You will always be a part of me ^

My island home
Home of my family
This is my future
Where I want to be
(This is my future
This is my home)

Repeat Chorus x 2

My home
Wherever I may be
I believe
You will always be a part of me
A part of me

i love this song alot alot..
it's the theme song for this yr's national day..
in fact,it dun even sound like a national day song..
the lyrics are so nice..
i'm addicted to it =]

2006-07-16T17:56:00.000+08:00

june hols are over.
well,it wasn't really considered a holiday for me..but i certainly enjoyed the times spent during the rivervale pri camp,atc at pulau ubin,mt ophir trip,the convention at st nicks as well as the prefects camp..made many new friends thru these camps and activities,it was really a great experience :))
(sorry abt not blogging on the different camps,cause i dun hv time to type out everything)

anyway,it's been 3 weeks since sch started.
there's only 2 words to describe how i'm feeling now: STRESSED AND FATIGUE

i haven't been resting well and i drag my feet to sch everyday..
homework,tests and projects are piling up,
planning for teacher's day starts,
tug-of-war competition is just round the corner,
3 days of tuition per week,
training for goh every thrice a week,
ndp training every sat..
i'm not complaing or wad,but i feel the pressure now,when everything starts to pile up..it's not easy to be the overall i/c for the teacher's day planning and for the npcc inter-unit tug-of-war competition hosted by my sch..i'm trying to manage my time and balance everything out,but at the same time,i'm really afraid that i cannot do a good job and get everything screwed up..i really hv no confidence in myself..

i wish i can fall into a deep slp and never wake up agn,
so that i can forget abt all my hmwk,tests and projects,
i can forget abt everything.
i wish someone could take me away,
away from the cruel realities of this world.
i'm dying inside,
i'm going out of my mind,
someone pls save me!!!

:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((

2006-05-28T22:52:00.000+08:00

ACTIVITIES FOR JUNE HOLS
29th May: Rivervale Pri Camp
30th May: Rivervale Pri Camp
31st May: Rivervale Pri Camp
1st June: English Camp
2nd June: English Camp ; ATC (Pulau Ubin)
3rd June: ATC (Pulau Ubin)
4th June: ATC (Pulau Ubin)
5th June: Prefects' Camp meeting
6th June: Briefing For Ophir Trip
7th June: Mt Ophir Trip
8th June: Mt Ophir Trip
9th June: Mt Ophir Trip
10th June: Prefects' Camp meeting
11th June: Police Week Carnival ; A Maths tuition
12th June: Canoeing Course
13th June: Canoeing Course ; 3e2 Chalet
14th June: 3e2 Chalet ; A Maths tuition
15th June: 3e2 Chalet
16th June: -
17th June: Prefects' Camp briefing
18th June: Religious Class ; A Maths tuition
19th June: Convention at St Nicks
20th June: Convention at St Nicks
21st June: A Maths Tuition
22nd June: SANA Course
23rd June: Prefects' Camp
24th June: Prefects' Camp
25th June: Religious Class ; A Maths tuition

HOMEWORK FOR JUNE HOLS
English
1) 4 Essays
2) Min. 50 words added to reading log
3) 70 newspaper articles by end of this year
4) Homework on edulearn

HCL
1) 4 ying yong wen (Chinese letter writing)
2) 4 compos
3) 4 mock papers from other schools
4) 3 book reviews.
5) Do ppt. on book reviews

E Maths
1) Homework on edulearn

A Maths
1) Ex 5A- Qn 6,8,9,12,13,14,19
2) 2 mock papers from other schools

Physics
1) Do qns in TYS (167 qns altogether)

Chemistry
1) Do qns in TYS (16 qns altogether)
2) Chemistry w/s

Pure Geog
1) 4 Essay qns from TYS

the above are all my activities for this june hols as well as my hmwk..decided to post it to remind myself. hols are starting tmr,so everyobdy,ENJOY UR HOLS =D

2006-05-24T23:39:00.000+08:00

mid-year results are out. i did badly. here are my grades:

English- B3
HCL- B4
E Maths- B3
A Maths- A1
Physics- D7
Chemistry- B3
Pure Geog- B3
Combined Humanities (Elect history & SS)- B3
L1R5- 16
L1R4- 13

i'm disappointed in myself,i failed physics :( gonna hv a red mark in my report book alrdy,it's the first time..physics is really diffcult,but i really got to buck up..yupps,as for L1R5,i didn't reach my target..my target for myself was 11-13. but i got 16 instead =X am gonna work hard for the 2nd half of the yr =D

hv been busy recently abt np and prefect stuff.

last week,we had our first np training after exams,its also the first training that we hv since we took over the unit..we didn't do very well,i guess its cause we just take over,den alot of things we dunno yet,there's still alot to learn..we got scolded by our seniors and the officers for our attitude. actually,i kinda admit that our attitude is quite bad,would try to improve =) like our officers always say: the journey has just begun,its only the beginning (:

on sunday,mun ting's father came to send munting,theresa,kah pin and me to sch early in the morning cause we gotta report at 5.55am for the newpaper big walk..i went with the np ppl and we reached national stadium at ard 6 plus going 7am,and waited for the walk to start..there were ard 30 of us,haha..while waiting,we saw some ice-cream stalls and decided to buy ice-cream to eat..lol,it was my first time eating ice-cream so early in the morning,haha..at ard 7.30am,the walk started,the whole thing is 10km,and we managed to complete the whole walk at ard 10.30am..we walked slowly,and on the way,we talked abt alot of things,it was fun (: after the walk,theresa,mun ting,kah pin,hong hui,aaron,tai hong,kah wai,gerard and me went to suntec to eat,it took us ard 1 hr to decide where to eat,we are always so indecisive..haha,after lunch,we shopped ard at suntec for awhile and decided to go tai hong's hse..kah pin and mun ting went home first,so only left with theresa,hong hui,aaron,kah wai,tai hong,gerard and me..at tai hong's hse,kah wai and hong hui slept,while gerard help tai hong to reformat his com,and me,theresa and aaron piece up a 300 piece jigsaw..haha,after we finished,me and theresa decided to slp also,cause we were all tired..and we all slept like a pig =X went home at ard 5 plus,bathed and went out to celebrate my dad's bdae..ate at soup restaurant,the food was yummy =D wanna say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DADDY!!! LOVE YOU LOTS!!!

monday this week was npcc day,we reported at 6.45am in the morning in full-u,den when it's time,we fall-in in the parade square..everyone was looking at us,so we were kinda shy,hehe..kah wai was the commander and he did a great job *claps* after mdm read the npcc msg and after we took our npcc pledge,mr lim went up to speak to the school..he asked all of us to turn ard to face the sch (we were facing the foyer initially,so our back was facing the sch instead),and he praised all of us in front of the whole school..saying how good NPCC was and stuff,haha,so happy..he also praised us during assembly when he talked abt commitment in cca =D

by the way,i'm going to mount ophir,again..haha,cause mr reduan ask me to go. yupps,am gonna be real busy this coming hols..

2006-05-15T22:48:00.000+08:00

woots! EXAMS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER!!! hahas,i finally dun need to bury myself in those piles of textbooks =D

we hv a 6 day break from sch from 12/5 - 17/5,well,its a good rest for us after exams,but kinda boring. humans are always so contradicting,when its exam period,we complain that there's alot to study and we pray hard that exams wud be over soom. now that exams are over, we're complaining that its very boring..there's nth much we can do,except to rot at home and go out with friends.

yupps,i spent my whole friday last week at home,its super boring..all i could do was to come online,use the com and watch tv. on sat,went shopping in orchard and bugis with pris and theresa..it was fun (: we bought jia qi and desmond's bdae present and i bought a new bag for myself,hehe..

as for today,am supposed to watch Poseidon with np mates,but alot of them watch the show before,and some of them cannot make it today,so decided to cancel it,sad sad. in the end,pris asked if wanna watch it together with her and theresa,and i agreed,so we went to watch the 3.40pm show today. it was quite nice. during the first 15-20 mins of the show,the ship alrdy sink..so the whole movie is basically abt how the ppl escape and stuff..quite exciting and touching,i almost cried =X

supposed to go k-box with xx,juv,jasmine,min hui,jia qi,loo yee and cherlyn tmr to celebrate xx's bdae..but i told them i'm not going,cause i'm broke. really wish to go with them,but i need to save money now..been spending alot for the past few days. sorry xiao xian,u all enjoy urselves tmr =)

lastly,today's 15th may,so HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PRISCILLA & JIA QI!!!

2006-05-09T18:57:00.000+08:00

e maths paper 2 was a total disaster to me. sighs. i lost 28 marks!!! there are 2 graph qns,both i drew the graph wrongly,and i didn't complete my 2nd graph qn,RAHHHH!!! 21 marks gone. den there's another qn on exchange rate and i couldn't seem to figure out how to form the equation,7 marks gone. and altogether,i've lost 28 marks,minus the marks for all the careless mistakes i'm gonna make for the other qns..boy i'm gonna fail,and i mean fail really badly.

anyway,tmr's our last paper,PHYSICS. to me,physics is a killer subj,cause i always score very badly for tests and dun really understand the subj. i'm just so tired of mugging,worrying abt my papers everyday and squeezing out all my brain juices to memorise the facts. come to think of it,facing the textbooks everyday is a nightmare,lol.

but i'm so glad that exams are FINALLY ending tmr,yay!!! =D gonna regain my freedom agn,hahahahaha.

2006-05-07T09:55:00.000+08:00

E MATHS is killing me,ahhhhh!!!!!!!!

went out to hv grp study with friends yst. was practicing e maths graph qns and i got so frustrated doing it,i hate graphs,and i just dun understand a single thing abt it..tmr is e maths paper 1 and pure geog paper. think i'm gonna flunk my e maths.

today's sunday,and sunday is study day for me :(

let's just hope i can finish studying for my geog,it's alot to study.

okay,back to geog-

2006-05-05T21:02:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK!!! hahas..i know it's been long since i last updated >.<

yay! today's friday,it means that english paper 1 & 2,social studies,chemistry,elect history,a maths and hcl paper 1 & 2 are OVER! (: 3 more papers to go- E maths,pure geog and physics. HANG IN THERE JANICE!!! =D

today had hcl paper. the compo had to write a minimum of 400 words,lols,thats alot to me. yupp,i know i suck at chinese..still thinking whether to drop hcl. so after paper,went to compass to hv lunch with theresa. ate the sliced fish bee hoon,omg,its super! haha,i think i'm addicted to it =X ok,i'll stop crapping now. i'll update agn probably when i'm free.

to everyone who are hving ur exams now: all the best! =)

2006-03-07T21:59:00.000+08:00

i'm being tagged joyce and mun ting...
de rules/instructions:
-the tagged victims list 8 different points of their perfect lover/partner, mentioning the gender of said partner.
-tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment on the post letting them know they have been tagged. if you tagged before, you are not require to contribute again.

my perfect male lover[ so profound]
1) be there for me when i need a shoulder to lean on =)
2) trustworthy- able to listen to my problems,and trust me enough to tell me his probs too
3) understanding
4) able to cheer me up when i'm down
5) someone whom i enjoy spending my time with
6) cheerful
7) caring
8) nice person

8 ppl i wanna tag.
1. si hua
2. juvenal
3. jia min
4. sophia
5. puay ling
6. josephine
7. melisa
8. jasmine

2006-02-02T21:16:00.000+08:00

heys all,sorry for not updating..my internet was disconnected..anyway,it's been a month since sch started..first week of sch i was busy with sec 1 orientation camp. it was way fun,i was the SL for 1E1 and i love them all..they are really nice people..kinda miss them,hahas =) then had campcraft trainings everyday,as usual..prefects also had quite a few meetings..still trying to adapt to upper sec life. the wk load is heavy..teachers give hmwk everyday,plus all the activities in sch..i really gotta learn how to cope..well,that's life =D ok,wud update more nxt time..wishing everyone a HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ^^

2005-12-31T20:27:00.000+08:00

this is my last post for yr 2005 cause today's the last day of this yr x)

went to lot 1 shoppers mall with my mum and sisters today to shop for some new yr clothes..mum got me a billabong top and an op skirt..besides that,also bought another top and skirt to wear to my cousin's wedding dinner,which is tmr..hehe..maybe going to bugis or heeren on monday to shop for some more clothes,yeah!!! so happy!!! anyway,thanks mum =)

alrights..this week,i've been having cca fair meeting cause i'm in the cca fair committee for np..there are alot of things to do,and there's not enough time already,so we really gotta rush for all the souvenirs and stuff..den there's campcraft training as usual..yst was the 19th training we had during the hols..yupps,it was the last training for the yr 2005 and it was also the last time our graduated seniors are coming back to help us..cause when sch re-opens,some of them hv to go poly or jc while others gotta work..so i really wanna thank them for their help,they always made an effort to come and train us as long as we hv training..and also helped us to think of the structure of the shelter as well as the gadget,thanks alot seniors (:

i also attended the pre-camp for sec 1 orientation on 28th and 29th. we reported to sch at 7.30am..den ms loo briefed us abt the camp and we went for our 2km run as usual..after that was ice breakers..we were made to rmb all the names of the student leaders..den we played another game-jigga transporter..that one is a station game..the people in the 1st station gotta transport 1 puzzle piece at a time to the 2nd station using 2 sheets of paper..without letting his/her legs touch the ground..in the second station,the person is suppose to stand on the chair and do FISHING!!! hahas. i love this part..the "fishing rod" is actually a floorball stick attached to a wooden block using a string..den there's a piece of sticky tape at the wooden block so that the piece of puzzle could stick on it..after the person got the puzzle piece,he/she wud bring it to the 3rd station whereby 1 person wud be blindfolded to walk thru an obstacle to bring the piece of puzzle to the 4th station..the people at the 4th station wud den piece all the puzzle pieces together to form a puzzle..first grp that is finished wins. we played the game 3 times and my grp got 2nd for the first time and 1st for the second and third time..yeah!!! the loser grp gotta use their butts to write the word "student leader". lols. after that is the trust walk. we had to blindfold ourself and the teachers wud bring us walk ard the sch to overcome the obstacles..oh wells,this game is kinda boring. nxt is the learning of the NV mass dance,den lunch. after lunch was the canopy walk at macritchie..we walked for 11km in 3 hrs,and on the actual day of the orientation,the sec 1s got 4 hrs to complete 5-6km..so lucky,hahas =) came back frm the walk,all sweaty and smelly..practiced our stomp performance until 7.30pm,and had our dinner..at 8.15pm,we run thru the whole campfire..was only allowed to bathe at 10pm..after bath was supper and den lights off at 11.40pm..i didn't really slp well though,woke up a few times thruout the night,and it was freezing cold in the classrooms,even after we turned off all the fans,lol. ok..nxt day,woke up at 5+am..went to wash up and we had breakfast at 7.30am..after breakfast we played 2 games-spider web and egg drop..for the spider web game,we hv to transport all grp members across the spider web without letting any part of the body touch the strings..and for the egg drop,we're suppose to use newspaper,raffia string and 30cm scotch tape to protect the egg..den we dropped it down frm 2nd floor..if the egg didn't break,the grp wud proceed on to drop the egg frm the 3rd floor..i played this game for so many times already..hahas..after that we practiced our stomp performance agn and den went to lecture room to pack the orientation package..the whole camp ended at 1+pm..was given our t-shirt which was the same as the sec 1s..just that ours is white in colour..oh ya,i'll be in-charge of 1e1'06 together with ethel and jasmine..am looking forward to it =D

now,i'll do my reflections for this whole yr of 2005..

life in npcc hv been very fun,i enjoy the company of my np mates,and we're more bonded together now since we've already spent 2 yrs together..got to know each other better,sec 2 squad'05 rawks (:

for prefects,went on an attachment to st. nicholas..learnt alot of things there..also,there are more responsibilities and i gotta learn how to handle them,it's hard..but it's all abt learning how to cope..hehe..

as for studies,i know that my grades hv dropped..so i really gotta buck up in 2006..i didn't choose triple science although i qualified for it,cause i feel that i can't cope..chose double science instead..i hope i made the right choice. wud be in sec 3e2 nxt yr..hope that nxt yr's class is gonna be a fun one..

attended 5 camps this yr..outward bound (obs), adventure training camp (atc), sec 1 npcc camp,prefects camp and sec 1 orientation pre-camp..also went for the mt ophir trip..thru out all these camps,i've had alot of fun and experienced alot of things..got to make new friends too ^^

ok,i've talked a whole lot abt 2005..now comes my new yr resoultions for 2006.
1) i hope to study hard and do well in my exams
2) learn how to manage my time better
3) cope better between studies,npcc and prefects
4) try and look on the positive side of things (:
5) not to affect the mood of people ard me even when i'm sad or not in a good mood
6) not to neglect my friends and family even though i'm busy..try and spend more time with them.
7) change my temper. i know i'm hot-tempered.

yupps,so thats all abt my resoultions..really hope that i can do all these 7 things that i've listed. i wud try my best to do it. ok,wud end here..wishing everyone a HAPPY NEW YR!!! may yr 2006 be a great yr for all of us =)

2005-12-25T14:04:00.000+08:00

played mapleSEA just now. i went to happyville!!! booked a room to decorate my own christmas tree,the christmas ornaments were sooooo cute,i wanna buy all of them,but inventory no space,hahas.

okies,to those ppl who sent me christmas greetings or wished me a merry christmas,thanks alot =) and to everyone out there..here's wishing all of you a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

2005-12-21T11:20:00.000+08:00

oh wells. i finally can find time to update my blog,sorry guys..i know i haven't been updating it for 2wks plus going 3 wks. alrights,would write abt wad happen in the past 2 wks..

5/12-11/12: had excos meeting..discussed abt the events for nxt yr,new exco structure and lots of stuffs. den there was campcraft training frm mon to thurs..not to forget the 1e1 chalet which was on 7/12-8/12. it was really fun,we had bbq and i was frying potato nuggets,seaweed chicken,sotong balls and french fries in the kitchen. although i didn't get to eat much,bt it's ok. u get a sense of satisfaction when u cook for ppl,and see them enjoy eating it (: after that,all of us played water bombs,and we made sure EVERYONE was wet. yan kang was even pulled out of the rm,and all of us threw water bombs at him,he was the last person to get wet,wad an honour,hahas. after that,all of us went to bathe and mr ng brought us out for night walk. we walked frm aloha resort all the way to pasir ris park,and when we reached there,it started to pour. so we ran to downtown east to seek for shelter. it was around 2am. and the guys bought mac to eat,lols. den we waited till around 3+am bt the rain did not stop,so we had no choice bt to run back to the resort in the rain,it was freezing cold. by the time we reach the resort,it was already 4am. some of us went to slp,others watched soccer match on the tv and some played truth or dare. yupps,it was a fun night. bt the nxt morning,everyone was tired. all of us didn't get enough slp. haha,den at ard 9+am,theresa,milfred,kenneth,kah wai and me took a cab to sch for campcraft training. yupps,really love 1e1'04. hope that nxt yr's gathering wud be a fun one too =D besides all these,also had npcc banner painting,npcc cca carnival meeting. yupps,den had dance practice also,cause i was asked to dance during the np dinner and dance. think i'm really gonna make a fool out of myself cause i suck at dancing,hahas.

12/12-18/12- campcraft training on everyday this week. frm 8am-5pm,really tiring. it's like a routine. morning wake up at 6.30am,bathe,go sch for campcraft until 5pm,go home,bathe,eat dinner,watch tv and den slp. also had dance practice. the ppl dancing are huda,chong ee,kah wai,milfred,tai hong and me. huda came out with the steps and it was hip hop dance. gosh,it took me so long to master the steps. and believe it or not,we practied on sat 11am-9pm and only learnt 1 min of the dance,it was so pathetic. so for the whole wkend of this wk,we were practising this dance.

19/12- campcraft training as usual,bt it was a short one,frm 8am-12pm. after that,we practised our dance until 6pm and i went for a maths tuition until 8pm.

20/12- student leadership training in the morning. ran 2km and did some stretching. after that,we proceeded to think of ideas for the stomp performance. also,we got the meet the sec 1 orientation committee. yupps,i left early,for dance practice,again. hahas. we practiced frm 11am-5pm,den we got ready for dinner and dance. it was held in the lecture theatre,started at 6.30pm. overall,wud say that the whole thing was quite successful. the graduated sec 4s,present sec 4s,sec 3s and sec 2s came for the dinner and dance. there was performance put up by the sec 3s and 2s. for the sec 2s,we did the hip hop dance,it was so embaressing,lol. cause i really cannot dance well. after that,we had buffet,and the food was nice =D there was also lucky draw and games. lastly,it comes to the dancing part,where everyone were asked to come to the front to DANCE. hahas,it was really fun. the atmosphere was good,cause the lights were off and there were colourful lights,sort of like a disco. all of us held hands and dance together. after the dance,we watched a video,which was a tribute to our sec 4 seniors who wud be leaving the sch. hmm,it was kinda sad,sec 4s are leaving us,bt we will always rmb u all =) the whole thing ended at 10.30pm and dad came to fetch me hm,thanks dad (:

oh wells,my life's revolving ard npcc. i meet up with my np mates almost everyday during the hols,even wkends. my mum had asked me to quit cause she thinks i spend to much time on npcc. bt i will never quit (: i enjoy the times spent together with my np mates,they are really great ppl.

hmmm,time really flies. there are only 2 wks of the hols left. i haven't started on my holiday hmwk yet,argh!!! gonna find 1 day when i hv nth on to stay at hm to rest and finish all the hmwk. yupps,thats abt it. gonna bathe now,campcraft training is at 1pm today,so bye ppl. take care eveyone x)

2005-12-04T17:43:00.000+08:00

just came back frm a maths tuition. its the first lesson today and it's quite ok. yupps,anyway,i'm feeling very sad now. my dad told me in the morning that my cousin jaime jie is hospitalised. she got burnt in a gas explosion. according to my aunt,she was at home and was gonna cook sth..so she turn on the fire and went to the toilet after that,not knowing that the stove did not light up. just as she came out frm the toilet,the gas cylinder exploded and she got burnt. my aunt said that the doctor classified it as a second degree burn,so it's quite serious. i love her alot,and really hope that she is fine,am so worried for her =( somemore she's my closest cousin. i always share my problems with her..jaime jie,get well soon!!!

2005-12-03T17:39:00.000+08:00

it's been a busy week for me. monday morning i met min hui,jia qi,priscilla,pei yi,juliana,eileen,cherlyn,jasmine chi,juvenal,samuel,desmond,seng meng,sera,crystal and jillson at compass today. we went there to celebrate juvenal's bdae- bought her a cake and a bag =) after that,all of us went to sentosa except for jillson. yupps,it was fun there. we stayed there until ard 6.30pm and then took the shuttle bus to harbour front centre to hv dinner. actually,i was supposed to go wild wild wet with juvenal,eileen and su shan but we went to sentosa in the end. cancelled the meeting with su shan. to su shan-we're really really sorry for cancelling the meeting. we know u're affected by this,and is very angry. sorry that we didn't care abt how u felt. it's our fault. den on tuesday and wednesday,i went to sch for np campcraft training. it was tough. now,my hands hv 5 blisters and one finger swollen. it's due to the pegging that we've been doing. really hope to get into the team,but it's gonna be difficult. we also had the farewell party for sec 4 prefects on tuesday night. it was frm 5.30pm-8pm. all the prefects who went had dinner in the canteen and den there was the certificate presentation for the sec 4s. yupps. prefects camp was frm thurs to sat,which is today. i just came back frm camp. the camp was a success,at least all our hard work of organising the camp did not go dwn the drain,the prefects enjoyed it. yay!!! came to realise that it was not easy to organise a camp,it's very tiring. u hv to do all the cleaning up after everyone played all the games,and do all the behind-the-seen stuffs. was not feeling well yst night durng the camp,think it's because of lack of slp. was hving headache,but i'm ok now =) oh,by the way,if i dun update my blog that often these few days,it's because i'm busy. am gonna hv campcraft training on almost everyday for the whole month of december,and it's for long hrs,like 1pm-5pm,8am-5pm and 8am-1pm. den there's student leader's traing. one more thing,1e1 chalet is nxt week!!! i'm so excited,yeah!!! been waiting for this class gathering for very long. am looking forward to it (:

Campcraft Training Schedule
29/11- 1pm-5pm
30/11- 1pm-5pm
01/12- 1pm-5pm
05/12- 1pm-5pm
06/12- 1pm-5pm
07/12- 8am-5pm
08/12- 8am-5pm
12/12- 8am-5pm
13/12- 8am-5pm
14/12- 8am-5pm
15/12- 8am-5pm
16/12- 8am-5pm
19/12- 8am-5pm
21/12- 1pm-5pm
22/12- 1pm-5pm
23/12- 1pm-5pm
27/12- 8am-1pm
28/12- 8am-1pm
29/12- 8am-1pm
30/12- 8am-1pm

2005-11-25T13:22:00.000+08:00

it's been a fun wk this wk. alright,would talk abt it now =)

21/11 (monday)- went to sch early in the morning to help in the preparation for sec 4 graduatoin high tea. we packed the chopsticks and 2 pieces of paper together. i felt like a factory worker,hahas. cause we have to finish packing 500 of them..that was alot,it took us abt 3 hrs to finish everything..

22/11 (tuesday)- went to watch harry potter today.met theresa,juvenal,cherlyn,jasmine,min hui,ci wei,kah wai,milfred,desmond,kang cheng,jillson,samuel,gilbert,seng meng and kenneth in the morning at cp..den we took mrt to plaza sing and bought the tickets..we mangaed to get the tickets for the 3.10pm show. there were 16 of us,so we took up 2 rows (8 each row). after buying the tickets,all of us went arcade to play and den to eat lunch. we went into the cinema at ard 3.05pm,bt the show only started at 3.30pm -.- yupps,it ended at ard 5.35pm. the show was really nice,just that some of the parts were missing. but it was kinda sad cause _____ (i forgot his name) died. wud rate it 4 out of 5 stars ^^ after the show,we went to arcade to play,AGAIN. we were all obssessed with the spot the difference game. all of us were crowding ard 2 machines,hahas. we wanted to break the high score but didn't manage to. reached hm at ard 8pm,really enjoyed myself today =D

23/11 (wednesday)- today's the sec 4 graduation high tea. we are supposed to dress up in a formal dress code cause we're going there to help out. we (me,pei yi,jessica,jasmine,desmond,kang cheng,kah wai and milfred) met up at cp at 11am to hv our lunch. the guys looked nice in their long sleeve shirt with tie and tailored pants,hahas. i felt so weird cause i dun usually wear sth so formal,and the shoes that i wore made me have 2 blitsters- 1 on each leg. so painful =X after lunch,we took mrt to chinatown,den we walked to furama hotel. reached there at ard 12.30pm,lip young was already there. all of us helped to prepare the reception table. pei yi,jessica,jasmine,desmond,kang cheng,milfred and kah wai were the receptionists. they were supposed to mark attendance of the sec 4s and give out door gifts. i was in charge of the guest book and lip young was in charge of giving out the lucky draw tickets. after we did our duties,we joined the sec 4s. had some food,and the food was quite good. den we watched some performances and slide shows. the whole thing ended at 5.30pm,wud say that it was quite successful (: after that,jasmine and jessica went home while the rest of us went to j8. we didn't stay there for long though,only shopped for awhile den we took bus 88 home.

24/11 (thursday)- had student leader training today.woke up late in the morning cause i was really tired. yupp,luckily i weren't late for the training,if not gotta do 20 pumpings. for the training,we ran 2km and den did some stretching exercise. den we played some team bonding games. one of it was that all of us hv to hook onto each other hands and run together,sth like that. den we played wacko and the last game was to see which grp can form the longest line. haha,my grp even used the dustbin and we won ^^ after the training,had excos meeting with mrs jenny tan. after the meeting,all of us went to cp to hv lunch together (:

25/11 (friday)- i'm free today. no programmes for me. so i'll be rotting at hm x)

OH YA,THE TOP STUDENT FOR PSLE THIS YEAR COMES FRM ROSYTH!!! YAY!!!
ROSYTH RAWKS FOREVA!!!

2005-11-06T09:33:00.000+08:00

to everyone who has been reading my blog: i apologise for not blogging recently. hmms,its been 1 wk since sch hols already..time really flies,i'm gonna miss 2E1 =( yupps,for this whole wk,i've been busy with the prefects attachment presentation,there's really alot of things to do..we met up so many times but can't seem to finish it,probably because we always end up playing,hahas. anyways,the streaming results is out. i've been posted to 3e2. although i got into the stream that i wanted (double science),but i kinda regretted not choosing triple science. ok,nvm,since i've chosen double science,i shall really study hard and make the best out of my last 2 yrs in north vista =D here are the subjs that i would be taking nxt yr:

English Language
Higher Chinese
Additional Maths
Elementary Maths
Pure Physics
Pure Chemistry
Social Studies
Elective History
Pure Geography

2005-10-23T16:00:00.000+08:00

exams are over. results are out. and all i can say is that i'm totally disappointed in myself. my results sucks..*sighs* i've got no1 to blame but myself..sorry but i dun feel like posting my results this time. i did badly for science..as for english,i didn't do well too. i drop frm the grade of A1 to B3..reli hate myself,but its no use regretting now..hope that i can get into double science,cause i reli dun wish to go combine. well,ppl tell me its no use worrying abt it now,but i can't help it.

2005-10-14T20:57:00.000+08:00

had my music paper today..it was quite ok,just that i dunno hw to do ard 2-3 qns..hmms,now that exams are over,i gotta do my powerpoint slides for prefects attachement. was just told by yeong chyun today that mrs somu say that the presentation is on ard 20+ of october. reli gotta rush thru the ppt,cause we still hv to practice how we are going to present..think there wud be prefects frm ard 5 schs who wud be attending our presentation. so scary,gotta speak in front of so many ppl =X anyways,there has been quite a bit of friendship problems lately,reli hope that everything wud be back to normal as soon as possible.

2005-10-13T17:25:00.000+08:00

heys,sorry for not updating cause of exams. well,exams are finally over. or shd i say the major papers are over,there's only music and cdp paper left. hmmm..i dun reli hv the confidence to do well this time,all the papers seem so difficult,haiz..i'm worried that i can't get into a pure science stream..anyways,went to compass with eileen,su shan,jasmine,cherlyn,min hui,jia qi,xiao xian and priscilla today after home econs paper..we went to kfc and hv our lunch and den shopped ard..waited for mr ng to come and den went to swensens to hv ice-cream..thanks mr ng for ur treat (: after that,all of us went to lrt station to play truth or dare...got to know quite a few things today..ok,think i wud just end here. rest well ppl,and play hard ^^

2005-09-19T16:47:00.000+08:00

it's been abt more than a week since i last posted. am gonna make this post short cause i gotta go study soon. hmm..last wk i was busy with prefects stuff,setting the new duty list and writing out the monthly reports. we also had our last npcc training before the exams,was kinda sad,hahas. cause cca wud stop for abt a month. am gonna miss np loads =( yupp,end-of year exams are just round the corner,so i wudn't be posting as often. i reli gotta buck-up on my studies,cause my grades reli deprove alot for CA2,so i hv to work doubly hard so as to score good results for end-of year. ok,think i shd stop here..gonna do my revision now. to everyone out there,all the best for end-of year exams,bye! =D

2005-09-10T20:11:00.000+08:00

sch re-opens nxt wk. how time flies,the 1 wk sept hols are gonna be over..actually,it's not reli a holiday to me..i went back to sch everyday..mon went for prefect's course. tues had npcc meeting. wed had history lessons and did science proj. thurs went for npcc junior nco course. fri had chinese cultural camp. today went for npcc tree-top walk at macritchie reservoir. yupp,i reach hm everyday at ard 7pm. haiz..i didn't reli rest well,cause i got to wake up at 6.45am-7am everyday to go to sch. oh wells,it's tiring but i'm glad that i hv things to do during the hols,at least it's better than staying at hm =D hmms..the prefect's course was fun..we played quite a few games,but overall,i learnt that leadership is influence. hahas,i rmb that cause the instructor kept emphasizing on this point..den we learnt quite alot of things during the junior nco course too. wanna thank yan ying,bell,li fen,wei wen,leong cheng and auggustine for planning the nco course for us,thanks alot :) as for the tree-top walk,we walked for ard 10.3km..bt it wasn't as tiring as the newpaper big walk,probably because we rested on the way..yeah,thats abt the activities for the wk. it seems like i've mentioned everything except for my hmwk. hehe. i haven't finished them yet..reli gotta wk hard this wkend to complete it..it's stressful,but i think i wk better under stress,lol. anyway,i just got scolded by my mum,haiz..i dunno if it's reli my fault or wad,it seems like everything is my fault =(

2005-09-04T22:40:00.000+08:00

yo,i'm back frm the mt ophir trip xD wud say that the trip was a fun one,got to know more new friends..but it was reli tough and tiring.

wednesday (31/8)- went to sch at the normal time..den had the aces day workout. after the workout,we prepared to set off for malaysia. the bus arrived at ard 8.30am and we went up the bus..everyone was kinda tired,so most of us slept during the journey. we reached gunung resort at ard 12.30pm,had our lunch there and den we prepared ourselves to climb mt ophir..to be exact,we only started climbimg at ard 2pm. the climbing was tough,cause the mountain was steep,and there wasn't staircases,as we expected..plus the fact that we had to carry all our belongings,sleeping bags and food rations.. there were also alot of rocks,so we had to use of hands to grab the trees so as to support ourselves in climbing up..we rested along the way and reached checkpoint for at around 5.30pm..it was our base camp..we den pitched out tents there and went to the waterfall to bathe..it was an all new experience to bathe at the waterfall,the water was super cold,it was like ice water..haha,but we had a fun time playing in the water..after bathing,we cooked cup noodles to eat and we were asked to slp at 8am..all of us couldn't get to slp cause it was too early,so we talked until ard 11pm,den we slept..

thursday (1/9)- woke up at 2.30am in the morning,we prepared ourselves and we continued climbing up at 3am..it was reli dark,so we had to use torchlights. we only reach checkpoint 5 at around 5.30am,so we rested there for abt an hr,waiting for daybreak..as we need to use ropes to climb up for some parts of the rest of the journey,so we can't be carrying out torchlights at the same time. yupp,we continued our journey at 6.30am..the rest of the journey was reli challenging..it was the point where most of us wanted to give up. we went into caves,climbed up steep slopes using ropes,went across waterfalls etc. we only managed to reach the summit at around 10.30am and stayed there for 30 mins (we took pictures and ate our breakfast there)..it was kinda cold up there,the temperature there was like that of an air-con,maybe slightly colder than air-con. but there was reli a sense of satisfaction and achievement when we reached the summit. after that, we started to climb down,all the way frm the summit to our base camp where we pitched our tents..climbing down was not easy either,our knee caps hurt..we reached the base camp at ard 1.45pm,had our lunch and packed our stuff. we den set off again at 2.40pm,this time,we had to also carry the garbage along..we reached the bottom of the mountain at 5pm..den,we went to bathe and den put our things in the jungle hut..the jungle hut was reli horrible..cause the ground there was infested with red ants,and den there wasn't any lights in there,only 2 matresses,no fans,nothing..we had our dinner at 7pm,and after dinner,was the debrief..that night,we were allowed to slp early at 9am,cause it was a tiring day..we climbed frm 2.30am-5pm..so all of our muscles were aching..although the management agreed to clear the red ants,we were afraid that there wud still be some around..so the 10 of us (pei yi,priscilla,yeong chyun,tze huan,desmond,iris,jia qi,shi jia,patrick and me) slept in 1 hut..we played silent heart attack until we were tired,den all of us went to slp..it was fun =D

friday (2/9)- today's the last day,and it's the most relaxing day..we woke up at 7am,packed our things and had dinner at 8am. den we were allowed to do some shopping at the nearby stalls..lunch was den served at 11am and we waited for the bus to arrive at 12.30am..actually,mr reduan promised to bring us to malacca to do some shopping..but as there wasn't enough time,he brought us to a nearby town and allowed us to shop for an hr..i bought 2 shirts and some snacks..den we went up the bus at ard 2.45pm..the bus trip was fun,haha..we listened to music on the mp3 and den played some games..yupp,we reached sch at 6am and i went hm..

oh wells,one thing that will make me rmb this trip is the cuts and bruises!! i counted 8 bruises and 8 cuts on my legs as well as 3 cuts on my hands. argh!!! anyways,wud say that this trip made me more determined..cause climbing the mountain was hard,we had to overcome alot of obstacles,and that applies for life too (:

2005-08-30T20:13:00.000+08:00

am so sorry that i haven't been blogging for around a week or so..yupp,hv been reli busy recently. hmmm..i wud be going for the 3 day 2 night mount ophir trip tmr,so wud only be back on fri at ard 5pm..life's been reli stressed,i seriously need a break. i go to sch everyday,feeling so tired and depressed,nobody understands me. i am not coping well..mr ng told our class that he's gonna suspend us frm our ccas if our grades continue to deprove. think he's just being concerned. he also told me that i've been too busy with np and prefects that i do not hv time to concenrate on my studies,yeah,i know that. even my mum's been asking me to quit np,cause she thinks that too much of my time is spent on np..but,i'm not gonna quit,never ever..cause i love np to the core (: den i got scolded by mrs somu also,for the lower sec prefects not doing their duties. my mum has been telling me that if my grades continue to be like this,i wud nt be able to enter university..and she said that i might even drop to normal acad. i dunno if i'm reli slacking or i'm too busy that i dun hv time to do my wk. i reli dunno..just hope that this mt ophir trip wud make me forget all my probs. yupp,wud blog again when i'm back..

2005-08-21T16:58:00.000+08:00

whees. am back frm my np ATC (Adventure Training Camp) at pulau ubin..i wudn't say the camp is very tough,bt it sure is tiring..okies,now i wud blog abt the camp..

19th aug (fri)- 1st day of camp..went to sch in the morning to hv lessons until 9.40am,den changed into our PT kits and left sch at 10+..reached changi jetty at ard 11am,we den took the boat to pulau ubin..yupps,we went to a different campsite frm the sec 3s..hmms,cause this camp consists of all the area 7 schs (north vista,punggol,seng kang,compassvale,sjc,holy innocents and serangoon),we were all divided into 10 grps..i'm in grp 1(penguin) and my grp members are..
-kah wai (north vista)
-fazeelah (compassvale)
-ya ping (serangoon)
-hong sheng (serangoon)
-cheng boon (holy innocents)
-sheng wei (punggol)
-wei jian (holy innocents)
-cecilia (sjc)
-buvan(punggol)
-nadia (seng kang)
-felicia (sjc)
-xiang han (compassvale)
-sunny (punggol)
-kidane (serangoon)
i love my grp members ALOT..they are reli nice ppl (: after that,we pitched our tents and had our tea break at 3+..first activity for the day was team building games,it was quite fun..gotta know my grp members' names and knew them better. den we had our dinner followed by campfire songs session..we practised all the campfire songs..the session was enjoyable and relaxing..at ard 9.30am,we had gadget making..for our grp,we were supposed to make a noticeboard out of 11 dowel poles and twine..and we did it!!! cheers grp 1 x) hmm..the gadget making ended at ard 10.45am..we den had our debrief and were allowed to go and wash up..the whole camp was only given up till 11.30am to wash up,there wasn't enough time,so all of us didn't bathe..we only changed and brush our teeth..lights out at 12am..my grp had santury duty at 12am-1am,we we only got to slp at 1am..i was reli tired,so i fell asleep very fast,bt i woke up mani times cause there were lots of mosquitos,grasshoppers and spiders..argh!!!

20th aug (sat)- day no. 2..today's the most tiring day..we woke up at ard 5am cause we were suppose to get ready and fall in at 5.45am..was reli tired..we had flag raising followed by PT..wud say that PT was quite tough..we did 125 jumping jacks..plus all the stretching,push-ups etc. den we went for morning run..PT ended at 7.30am and we had our breakfast. after breakfast, we did ATF (Adventure Training Facilities). first,my grp went for rock climbing..its my first time trying rock climbing,hmms..our hands reli need alot of strength in order to reach the top,as we have to push ourselves up..the sad thing is that i didn't manage to reach the top cause my hands weren't strong enough..i didn't wanna give up in the first place bt cause i was hanging up there for very long and that my hands were reli weak,i had no choice bt to come down..nxt was the maze. ok,this one is scary. it's an underground maze..something like a tunnel,where the place is dark and u can't see anything. it was so stuffy inside and we had to find our way out ourselves,also, we weren't allowed to bring torchlights in..the girls were screaming abt,hahas. den we went for low elements..there are many different obstacles..there is a swinging rope were u hv to balance on it and walk across it..den there's swinging log,tension rope,swinging ladder etc. after everything,we had our lunch at ard 12+..nxt activity was land expedition..we hiked around pulau ubin and we saw a wild boar. its locked up in a cage,haha..it's the first time i saw a real wild boar,lol. when we were halfway thru,it rained..so we had to put on our ponchos. i looked so moronic in it..the hike was quite tiring,cause we walked for ard 2+ hrs..we finally reached our campsite at ard 5am..den we were given time to prepare for the campfire night..our grp made the penguin costume for the animal fashion show and practised our grp cheer..dinner was at 6.30am-7am..after that,all of us went to take our things and we proceeded on to the sec 3 campsite for the campfire. we sang a few songs,had the animal fashion show and individual grp cheer..den there was lightning detected and we had to run back to our campsite..haiz..we didn't finish the whole campfire..we were asked to take our bags frm our tents and the grond sheet of the tent and move in to the canteen..same thing as day 1,we only had ard 30 mins to wash up,so we didn't bathe,AGAIN..for the night,we spread our ponchos in the canteen and slept on it..it was freezing cold at night,and i was shivering =X

21th aug (sun)- today's the last day..basically,it's the same as 2nd day..we woke up at 5am and fall in at 5.45am. bt today,everyone was reli tired,can see alot of ppl yawning,haha..early morning we got scolding frm the teacher officers and CIs cause we left things in the toilets..den we had our breakfast at 6.30am-7am..next was area cleaning..our grp cleaned the toilets and later on,we went to help out the other grps to unpitch the tents..after unpitching the tents,we cleaning the ground sheet,inner sheet and outer sheet of the tents..den we kept the tents,packed all our stuff and were all ready to walk to the jetty..we left the place at 10am and reached the jetty at ard 10.45am..it was a long walk,and we sang songs...reli nice (: yupp,den took the boat back to mainland,met the sec 3s and we took the chartered bus back to sch..den me,theresa,mun ting,jess,sera,joyce,hong hui,kenneth,aaron,milfred,kah wai,chong ee and tai hong went to cp kfc to eat..we saw the CIs there..yupp,had lots of fun..reached hm at 2+,unpack my stuff and den bathed..feeling reli tired now,somemore i hv history fieldtrip tmr at 6.30am..yupp,think thats all,hv to go and hv dinner now,bye =D

2005-08-12T22:54:00.000+08:00

hey,here to update abt the past few days x)

o9/o8 (tuesday)- it's national day today. i stayed hm to do my coursewk and den watch ndp parade on tv. saw augustine and donavan. hahas =p

1o/o8 (wednesday)- went to watch charlie and the chocolate factory with sophia,crystal,jasmine,seng meng,hao zhi,kang cheng,kenneth,samuel and desmond. yupp,actually cherlyn,eileen,theresa,min hui and jia qi were also watching,bt because we couldn't get the ticket for the earlier show,so they decided nt to watch. hmm..wud say that the show's quite funny,bt not reli nice. wud give it only 3 out of 5 stars.

11/o8 (thursday)- had physical training for the mt ophir trip after sch. it was reli tiring. we cycled at the cycling station for 20 mins. we were suppose to reach 10km by 20 mins,bt i only manage to reach 8.35km,haha,gotta train harder..den we went up and down the stairs 20 times frm 1st floor to the 4th floor. yupp,when i finally finish the 20 sets,my legs were so wobbly and shaky..was reli exhausted by then...

12/o8 (friday)- npcc training today was ok..we took our safety first test,and den had campcraft,games and mass jogging..the games was the best part =) we played captain's ball,it was way fun..

yupp,thats abt all that happened this wk. am going to cherlyn's hse to do lit proj tmr. we haven't started on anything yet and the project's due on nxt tues. we gotta finish everything tmr. oh wells,the upcoming wk is gonna be a busy one. i hv to complete the ppt presentation for attachment and the hall deco for teacher's day is supposed to be completed by nxt wk..den ATC is nxt wk also..hmm,reli gotta wk extra hard xp

2005-08-08T16:45:00.000+08:00

today is national day eve. i reached sch at ard 6.50am,den we waited for everyone to reach sch before we went to change and den to take our breakfast..den we fall-in the parade square,ready for the parade. who knows,it started raining and all of us were so disappointed,we took shelter and after awhile,the parade commander told us that the parade was cancelled..our "hopes" were dashed..everyone was in a lousy mood,cause we practiced so hard like 3 times a week for the past month,and in the end,all the hard work went down to the drain just like that. so no choice,we waited outside the hall..we were preparing to walk in. den the rain stopped and the sun came out. we felt so happi when we heard that the parade was going to resume. everyone cheered and we were overjoyed..yupps,bt i hv to say that our marching was not reli good. quite messy though..still needa practice somemore..hmms,den went up to hall for concert..sat with all my npcc mates. reli fun =) we cheered and we enjoyed ourselves thoroughly when we sang the 3 national day songs. felt that np was reli united. hahas. den ater that,went for mt ophir trip briefing and took my science test. it was a total nightmare. looks like i hv to prepare to fail the paper..i dunno how to do alot of qns..anyways,i just feel so glad that there's national day hols coming up..feel totally worn out by everything. sometimes,i reli hv the feeling that i dun wanna be an exco in prefects. its just so stressful..i feel that i didn't do my job well as a lower sec coordinator..i can't reach the standard that hamidah set last yr..she's a reli good lower sec coor. moreover,being head of the hall deco for teacher's day committee isn't easy too..i'm just not fit to be one..cause i can't even be present on teacher's day due to the mt ophir trip,where gt head like that one?only do the things for deco and can't even be present on the actual celebration..haiz..just wanna thank all my committee members for coming for every meeting that i ask u guys to come for and for putting in so much effort in doing the deci..i reli appreciate it..i know it has been hard,bt just bare with it kae?cause mrs jenny tan say we gotta finish everything by 20th aug,so there wud be more meetings in order to complete everything..to all hall deco peeps: jia you for everything =D

2005-07-31T18:37:00.000+08:00

wanna talk abt my npcc training on fri. its totally horrible. we had the ndp rehearsal and everything went wrong. we practised so hard for our drills and in the end,we did not march well during the parade..it was so heartbreaking to hear sir say that our marching can't even be compared to the sec 1s. it must be reli terrible..haiz..we trained so hard for it,bt we still didn't do well..all of us were disappointed =( anyway,i've been feeling rather left out recently..i think its because of the fact that i hv meetings and trainings everyday,so now,i cannot spend time with my friends together after sch..i feel so extra when they are talking abt some things which i dun understand..the more i try to understand the ones around me,the more unfamiliar and alien they are to me..*sighs* i only hv myself to blame for neglecting them..oh wells..i've been trying my very best to cope,esp my sch wk,bt seriously,i dun think i'm coping well..i just can't believe that i haven't handed in any part of my coursewk when all my friends already handed in their task analysis and 3 dishes..haiz...thats why i spent my whole afternoon today trying to complete everything..time reli flies..and tmr is monday agn..i haven't even rested well during the wkends..argh!!!!!!!!!! feeling so stressed up now..there's lit test,history test and science test nxt wk..wad to do?life is like that..

2005-07-23T22:45:00.000+08:00

hmm..dun feel like blogging abt this wk..sorri..anyway,i'm down with flu and sore throat..was nt feeling very well these few days..haiz. everything's in a mess,and so is my life. why can't everyone around me be happy? sometimes,i just wish that i could shut myself off frm this cruel world. *sighs* after trying to manage everything by myself for the past few wks,i finally broke down- i cried. i couldn't hide my tears any longer. why must life be like that? i just feel so terrible,when everything seems to go wrong..i'm tired of it. there seems to be tons of wk to be done,and i can't find time to do them. i already sacrificed my tv time and even the time when i come online..now i only use the com for less than an hr a day,unless i've to do my hmwk..but i still dun hv time to do my stuff..wad in the world is happening to me??? i can hardly breathe..i feel like there is a 100 kg weight on me,making me feel so stressed up. i've been trying to balance my commitments to my cca,prefects,sch wk,friends and family..bt it doesn't seem to wk..maybe i just need more time. anyway,wanna apologise if i just throw my temper on u guys for no reason. i was just feeling very frustrated. am reli sorri,i dun mean it.

2005-07-17T18:00:00.000+08:00

here to blog. oh wells,attachment at st nicks was reli great. felt reli welcomed by the st nicks gurls on my first day(monday) there..pei yi,pris and me were attached to class 2 diligence..it was a fantastic class. met my ex-classmate wei ling,was reli happi to see her =) yupp,over the 5 days,we participated in different activities..we gotta learn indian dance and we even danced the st nicks mass/family dance..den we went to toa payoh swimming complex to support st nicks in the swimming competition..hmm..bt i didn't get enough slp through the 5 days..cause i hv to go back to north vista everyday to collect hmwk..the worst thing is that we hv to change 3 buses frm st nicks in order to get there..the bus trip takes ard an hr plus..so i was reli tired..bt i guess it was all worth it =D on the last day,the 3 of us each got a present frm 2 diligence..they had this "farewell party" for us. den we took lots of pictures and the whole class even escorted us to the canteen to meet mrs somu. reli wanna thank all 2 d gurls for everything they've done..ok,that was abt the attachment...as for the wkend,i'm trying to brush up on my sch wk as i missed one wk of lessons due to the attachment..anyway,i just watched this chinese movie called "angel heart" on channel 8. it was reli touching. hahas. i almost cried cause the lil boy passed away in the end. it makes me think of gs. haiz..

2005-07-10T14:30:00.000+08:00

updates for the wk..there's nth much to post actually..everything's as per normal..went for the entreprenuer course,ndp training,npcc training and prefects meetings..frankly speaking,i haven't been coping well..same thing as last wk,i've been reaching hm at 7+ going 8pm due to all the trainings,meetings and stuff..den there's a whole lot of wk for me to do..hmm..looks like i reli gotta learn hw to manage my time well. anyway,i wud be going for attachment at st nicks frm tmr all the way till friday..that means that i wud nt be attending sch for 1 wk..am quite worried for my sch work actually..so i guess i wud be going back to sch everyday after sch at st nicks end to collect my hmwk..yupp,thats abt it,just hope that my stay at st nicks wud be a great one x)

2005-07-05T20:58:00.000+08:00

it's the start of another new wk agn..went to fish & co. to hv dinner yst with my family..the food there was yummy =) haha..its a treat frm my dad for youth day x) thks alot daddy!!! hmm..went to sch today..nth much..stayed back after sch for the entrepreneurship course..den after that,went hm..reli very tired these few days ,haiz..wud hv to reach sch tmr at 7.30am for NDP rehearsal..so,think i end here for nw..take care everybody..

2005-07-02T16:57:00.000+08:00

its been abt a wk since i posted..i was reli busy these few days that i dun hv time to post..had been reaching hm everyday at 7+ going 8pm..reli tired and worn out by all the activities. anyway,i wud update everything nw x)

27/06 (monday)-sch re-opens today..was reli happi to see all my friends =) miss all of them esp 1e1-ers!!! haha..was given a new timetable. yupps,den after sch,had excos meeting..was told by yeong chyun that pei yi,priscilla and me was selected to go for the attachment course at st nicks while kah wai,milfred and desmond were selected to go for attachment course at anderson sec.

28/06 (tuesday)-got to know our history teacher,its ms joseph,yay!!! so happi to hv her teach us history ^^ den we changed our science teacher to mr tan..bt as he went on re-service,we had a relief teacher-mdm wong..she wud be teaching us the whole chpt on electricity..am kinda worried cause she doesn't reli explain the concepts well..den for maths lessons,we had a new maths teacher-miss tan,and for ur information,she's the 4th maths teacher we had already..after sch,had my first entrepreneurs training..its quite fun and we gotta name our own company..si hua,su shan,jasmine,michelle,crystal and me were in the same grp and we named our company "wadevA pte ltd" haha..si hua was the CEO for our company..

29/06 (wednesday)-went to sch early today for ndp training..it ended at 11+ and i didn't hv time to eat my lunch =X as for lesson time,there's nth much to say except that OUR MATHS TEACHER CHANGED AGAIN!!!! ITS THE 5TH TIME ALREADY!!! i wud just talk abt the past four maths teacher..first one was mrs sankar,she went on maternity leave,so changed to mr lewin sim,den mr tan,den ms tan and the present one is ms chew..haiz..i'm reli worried for my maths,cause our maths teacher keep changing..argh!!! ok,guess i wud just stop complaining..anyway,after sch was prefects meeting..we got a lecture frm mrs somu abt our attire and attitude..the meeting ended only at 6+..

30/06 (thursday)-today,cherlyn,sophia,bowie,jessica,sera,si hua and me helped mdm seah to decorate her classroom after sch..it was so difficult to get the shelf fixed..sop and me spent ard an hr on it,bt still didn't manage to fix the shelf properly..overall,wud say that the decorations was below standard cause we didn't had time to think abt the design..

1/07 (friday)-today's a reli tiring day..before napfa test started,i went to np training for awhile..we played captain ball..reli fun =) den we had our napfa test..here's my results:
Sit-ups- 36 [A]
Standing Broad Jump- 172cm [B]
Sit And Reach- 44cm[B]
Inclined Pull-Ups- 12 [B]
Shuttle Run- 11.39 Secs [A]
my overall score is 22..its nt too bad bt still can be improved..i expected myself to get 24..hmm..nvm,wud try harder nxt yr..after napfa,i went for np training and we had to do PT!!!!! argh!!!! i already felt so exhausted after napfa and nw i hv ot do PT agn..haiz..nvm..reached hm at 7+,almost 8pm..oh ya,today's rui ren's bdae..wanna wish him a very happi bdae ^^

2/07 (saturday)- woke up in the morning,feeling so sleepy..my muscles are all aching frm napfa and npcc yst..had tuition at 1pm followed by piano lessons at 3.35pm..yupp,guess thats all..anyway,wanna wish gabriel and aaron a happi bdae x)

2005-06-26T13:26:00.000+08:00

hey,sorri that i didn't post for a few days. hehs,nth much happened anyway..was supposed to hv class gathering with my p6 class on friday at j8..bt it was so pathetic that only wan qin,rebekah and me can make it..lols,it turned out to be more like a friends gathering..haha..actually the 3 of us wanted to eat sakae sushi,bt decided to watch movie instead..so we went to watch batman begins..wud rate it 3 and a half stars out of 5 stars..the starting part is kinda boring,bt overall,the show is quite nice =) hmm..time reli flies. sch re-opens tmr. feeling both happy and sad..happy cause i wud be able to see my friends,sad cause there wud be a whole lot of hmwk agn..yupp,bt i wud face the new term with a positive attitude ^^

2005-06-22T09:44:00.000+08:00

ever since i came back frm obs,everything has been kinda boring..cause i'm leaving the whole of this wk for my hmwk and projs since its the last wk of sch hols..oh wells,i already wasted 2 days,cause i didn't hv the mood to do my hmwk at all..i only managed to complete the prefect's duty list..hv been busy everyday for the past 3 wks,so i'm nt quite used to staying at hm everyday..just feel like slacking nw =(

2005-06-19T14:32:00.000+08:00

hey people,i'm back frm obs camp!!!actually i was already back on friday,but i was too tired to blog..hehe..hmm..wud blog abt the camp now..

13/06 (monday)- met mr yon in sch at 7.30am,den we took a bus to punggol jetty,and den took a boat to pulau ubin-obs camp 2..as we were the first grp to reach,we had to wait for ard 2 hrs for the other schs to reach..after all the schs were present,we were den divided into watches..our sch was divided into 2 watches (amundsen and cousteau) with 15 ppl in each watch..i was in cousteau and my watch members were min hui,iris,jing yan,yong you,rui ren,shi ming,amanda,sherilyn,farah,larissa,kah wai,milfred,kenneth tan and donavan..they are reli nice ppl,and i got to noe more new friends =) ok,back to the topic..first,we took a grp photo with our instructor sam and later on,we went to pack our food rations and have our lunch..after lunch,we packed our store which contained all the equipments we need for the camp..after all the packing has been done,we finally had our very first activity..there was 3 parts to the activity:
1) blade of grass- we got into grps of 3s..1 person wud be standing in front,another in the center and the last person behind..den the person in the center wud fall front and back and the other 2 people standing in front and behind hv to catch that person and prevent him from falling..this is to build trust among our friends..
2) trust fall- 14 ppl wud be holding a mat and position it beside the stairs..den 1 person wud be standing on the stairs and that person hv to fall backwards..this is also to build trust but nw,it's to build trust among the whole watch..
3) belaying- this one requires our harness and helmet cause its a climbing activity which involves height..we got into grps of 4s..1 person wud be the climer who will be climbing up the high element,while the other 3 wud be the belayer,anchorman and the asst belayer..the 3 ppl are to support the climber and make sure that he/she does nt fall off..after the climber reach the top,he/she is suppose to let go of the high element and is supposed to be hanging in the air,waiting for the belayer,anchorman and asst belayer to lower him/her dwn..
after the activity,our insturctor brought us to our campsite and showed us hw to pitch a tent..after we pitched our tents,we cooked our dinner using mess tins,pots and solid fuels..after dinner,we were den told that we had to wash the mess tins using sand..so,we went to the beach,used the sand to scrub our mess tins and den rinsed with sea water..as for the cans left over by the can food,we had to rinse it and den compress it..we den dug a hole in the sand using the entrenching tool to bury the left over food..later on,our instructor gave us detergent and we had to do a second wash for the utensils and cookery..after everything was done,we were finally allowed to bathe..believe it or not,we actually bathed in the dark cause the lights in the toilet couldn't be on..haha,it was a fun experience..bathing in the dark was that scary after all..lights off was at 11pm..

14/06 (tuesday)- woke up at 6am,unpitched our tents and ate our breakfast..den,we packed the things that we needed into a big backpack provided for us..that backpack could hold 55kg..we had to pack for a 3 day 2 night "expedidition"..there were reli lots of things to bring..we each had to bring along 2 sport shorts,3 t-shirts,2 track pants,undergarment,life jacket,2 2 litres water bottles(4 litres of water altogether),1 mess tin,spoon,fork,mug,harness,helmet,personal effects,solid fuel,1 whistle and lighters..we also had to help the watch to carry 4 tent sets,6 jerricans(1 jerrican can hold 16 litres of water),pots,2 maps of pulau ubin,4 compasses and food that could last us for 4 meals..after we finised packing,our instructor told us that we wud be going to obs camp 1 and we had to find the way there ourselves using the map..the trekking part was the worst part..we walked thru the jungle carrying the heavy backpack and all the equipments with us..the backpack was even heavier than ourselves..hmm..it was so heavy that i couldn't lift it up myself-i had to ask someone to help me..on the way to obs camp 1,there was a checkpoint and we did an activity there..there were 2 parts to the activity:
1) part 1- the whole watch had to carry 5 water bottles with us and walk across all the obstacles individually..there were 2 starting points..both cousteau and amundsen wud start frm the 2 different starting points(which will be the other watches' ending point)..if anyone drops off frm the logs which form the obstacles,that particular person wud hv to re-start..everyone must be on the same log before the whole watch can move on to the next platform,the same goes to reaching the platform and moving on to the next log..
2) part 2- its the same as part 1,just that this time,the whole watch hv to hold hands,and if 1 person falls off frm the log,the whole watch hv to re-start..
come to think of it,this activity reli helps to strengthen the bond between the watch and also help to promote teamwork..after this activity,we continued trekking to obs camp 1..when we reached camp 1,we left our bags in a sheltered area,had our lunch and changed into our wet attire(swim wear,sport shorts,t-shirt,wet shoes and life jacket)..we den met instructor sam to learn abt kayaking..our instructor thot us abt the parts of a kayak,wad to do if the kayak capsized and hw to use a paddle..the best part was the kayaking part..i partnered larissa and we kayaked in the sea..it was way fun..bt nt long after we kayaked,there was thunder and it started to rain..so we had to go into a sheltered area and we were given materials to make our watch flag..when the rain finally stopped,we went to keep the kayaks,bathe,hv dinner and den pitch our tents..when we pitch our tents,it was already ard 8+..so we had to use torchlights...yupp,den the worst thing is that there was a rat hole at the campsite..it was right beside one of our tents and iris even saw a rat running abt..all of us freaked out..den at nite,the guys sacrificed and patrolled ard the campsite for the whole nite to ensure that the rats din't come into our tents..as a result,the guys din't get enough slp..anyway,just wanna thank all of the guys =)

15/06 (wednesday)- same thing as day 2,we woked up at 6am,unpitched our tents and had our breakfast..we were supposed to do rock climbing that morning but to our disappointment,it rained heavily..so we had to play some indoor games..we all thot that indoor games were usually boring and not challenging,bt we were wrong..the game that we played was called "raft escape"..we were given 3 planks and 8 blocks and the whole grp had to stand on it..the objective is to move to the finishing line using the planks and the blocks..if at any time someone falls off the plank,that person wud hv to be blind folded..this game may sound easy bt it definitely is nt..it reli puts our teamwork and patience to the test..after the game,we had our lunch and prepared to leave for our next campsite..as our next campsite had no water supply,we had to fill up the all 32 water bottles(2 litres each) for the whole watch and 4 jerricans(16 litres each) of water..luckily,the jerricans were transported to our campsite by a truck..after the preparation,we started to trek again..this time,it was for 3.6km..while we were trekking in the jungle,there were lots of mosquitos,so much so that u can see them flying all ard u..den there were mani junctions on the way,so there were times when we quarelled cause we din't noe which way to go..we managed to reach the campsite finally after ard 3 hrs..all of us were worn out and our shoulders were aching due to the heavy backpacks..after resting for awhile,we pitched our tents,cooked dinner and did the normal washing of utensils and cookery..for the very first time,we had an early nite..we were allowed to rest at ard 8 plus..so all of us powder bathed cause there weren't any toilets for us to bathe..the most disgusting part is when it comes to doing our buisness..as there weren't any toilets,we had to dig a hole using the entrenching tool,do our buisness and den cover the hole up..at nite,the whole watch sang together..we sang all kinds of songs-frm chinese to english songs. songs like tong hua,welcome to my life,don't wanna miss a thing,i dream and alot more..it was reli fun and we were so bonded..after ard 1 hr + of singing,our buddy watch amundsen came to tell us that their instructor told them that there were wild boars at our campsite..so we had to do patrolling agn to make sure that the wild boars dun come and attack us..as we din't close our tents,all the sand flies and ants came into our tents,and we got bitten by them..as a result,we couldn't slp..in the end,it was the guys agn who sacrificed their tents and let us slp in it..so all the gurls(7 of us) slpt in their tents..we told the guys that if they are tired,wake us up so that we could take over them for patrolling bt they din't wake us up,cause they said we were all slping so soundly..so the poor guys didn't slp for the whole nite agn...wanna thank the guys again..

16/06 (thursday)- woke up at 6am today,striked down our tents,changed into wet attire and had breakfast..breakfast for today was pathetic;only 1 packet of biscuit for each of us cause we didn't bring enough food..yupp,after breakfast,we reached the quarry after trekking for a few metres..den we had our next activity there..we were supposed to build a raft within an hr using 8 pipes,4 barriers and 11 ropes that are provided to us..the raft was supposed to float in the quarry which was 20+ metres deep..after we built our rafts,we pushed it into the quarry and all of us started to jump into the quarry one by one..we spashed water at each other and the whole watch got onto the raft..we were singing on the raft and i reli enjoyed it alot..after that,we had to change into our trekking attire..as there were no toilet facilities,we had to change in the forest..argh!!!there were so mani mosquitos and red ants..reli terrible =X later on,we continued our long trekking journey back to obs camp 2..the sun was scorching hot and everyone was irritated by all the mosquitos and ants..we encouraged one another nt to give up and we finally reached camp 2..as everyone was hungry,we started to hv our lunch and went for our next activity which was the flying fox!!!!! the flying fox was 6 storeys high..while i was climbing up the stairs to the top,it seemed like an impossible thing to reach the top cause the platform was so high up. yupp,bt when u come dwn frm the top,it only took less than 5 secs cause the speed was very fast..reli need lots of courage to do so. wud say that it was very memorable cause i didn't try flying fox before and it was my first time..hmm..after flying fox,our instructor brought us to our campsite..the campsite was quite high at the hill top,cause u hv to climb a 101 steps up the stiars to reach there and according to our instructor,she said that if we fall off,it wud be 40m down..so scary..today was the last day we pitched our tents cause it was our last night there..we kinda "mastered" the skill of tent pitching,so it only took the whole watch ard 30 mins to pitch 4 tents..after tent pitching,we unpack our stuff frm that dirty backpack into our own bag,den we did store cleaning..meaning that we hv to clean up all the equipments that we used..while the rest of us were doing store cleaning,jing yan,rui ren and milfred went to cook our dinner..den i went to help out later on..we had "buffet" for dinner tonite..haha,it was a nice one =) after dinner,did the normal washing up of the cookery and untensils,den went to bathed and finally,lights out at 11pm..

17/06 (friday)- last day of our camp. we striked dwn our tents early in the morning and went to wash them..den changed into our wet attire,ate our breakfast and met instructor sam at 7am. we did our commitment activity which was jetty jump..we had to say our commitment statement which was a promise that u made to urself and to everyone after this obs camp,and den jump dwn into the sea..there were jelly fish and small flying fishes in the sea..so,when our instructor did the demo,the flying fishes all flew up..i was disgusted..haha..yupp,when it was my turn,i said my commitment statement and den jumped dwn..the sea water was super salty and u could feel all the water rushing into ur nose..bt it was a great experience ^^ after that,we went to bathe and den camp break. we waited for our turn to take the boat back to mainland..mr yon was waiting for us at punggol jetty..den i took bus 82 and changed bus 86 to compass..went yoshi to eat with juvenal and min hui..haha,never had such nice food for so long..den later on,donavan came to join us and we chatted till 5+ and den went hm..

i've never regretted going for the obs camp. it was a reli fun one..we shared mani happy and sad moments together and got to know one another better. it's reli hard to say out verbally the thoughts and feelings of this camp unless u reli experience it urself. it was an experience of a lifetime. am gonna miss obs. anyway,just wanna say OBS,COUSTEAU and OUR INSTRUCTOR SAM RAWKS!!!!! THANKS FOR EVERYTHING YOU GUYS DID =)

obs motto: TO SERVE TO STRIVE AND NOT TO YIELD

2005-06-12T20:26:00.000+08:00

-wheets- guess i shd make a short post nw =) oh wells,would be going for obs camp frm 13th-17th..so,i wudn't be blogging for abt 5 days or so..am gonna miss my com,family,friends,handphone and most importantly my bed..haha..think i shd stop here,hv to go pack my stuff for tmr..bye..take care everyone,would post agn when i m back frm the camp x)

2005-06-10T10:00:00.000+08:00

updates for the past 2 days (:

08/06- went for the SANA course for the whole day..its an anti-drug course and after going for the course and doing the assignments,u can get a badge for npcc =) yupp,it was a 1 day course frm 8am-5pm..although its quite long,bt it was rather fun..except for the boring lectures,haha..the fun part is that we get to mix ard with ppl frm other schs..cause we were suppose to do a role play and we were seperated into a group which consists of ppl frm different schs..overall,the course was a great experience..

09/06- today was captain ball competition at yio chu kang sec..after all the trainings we get,our hardwk finally paid off..we managed to get 2nd in position =) the players were kah pin,amirah,namirah,li fen,jessica,theresa,mun ting,amalina and me..haha,there were many ppl who came to support us too..wanna thank all of them for their support..they are sherilyn,joyce,huda,aaron,milfred,kenneth,tai hong,ci wei,bing chao,wei wen,yuen tuck,yen hsin,su jun,hui juan,eunice,jin xian,hazel,augustine,sheng long and yan ying =pPp hope i din't miss out anybody x) besides them also wanna thank nicholas for training us and jun long for smsing us to give us his moral support cause he couldn't come to support us..yupp,a big THANK YOU to all of u..YOU GUYS RAWKS!!!

2005-06-07T23:11:00.000+08:00

hv been reli busy these days..firstly,with npcc camp. now that its over,i'm occupied with captain ball training because the competition is this coming thursday. hmms- for monday,had training frm 9am-5pm..8 hrs of training,it was a tough one..as for today,we had training too but the duration was shorter..its frm 8am-1pm bt we were released early at 12pm..after training,went to cherlyn's hse to do project wk..we kinda finished the advertisement bt it turned out awful..so cherlyn's gonna make some amendments to it..den eileen and me wud do the powerpoint since we are nt good at designing..crystal did abit of the advertisement and abit the powerpoint..lols..nw my muscles are aching due to the intensive training,bt i guess its all worth it..thanks to all the sec 3 ncos for training us ^^

anyways,i haven't been getting enough slp these few days..am both physically and emotionally drained..sometimes,i just wanna pour out all my problems to someone whom i can trust and who is willing to listen to them..*sighs* forget it. think i better stop bothering ppl abt all my personal stuff cuz i noe i'm being reli selfish here..would try to handle all this myself since its my own problems..

[Untitled]- Simple Plan

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

2005-06-03T18:47:00.000+08:00

02/06- today's the first day of the sec 1 npcc camp..reported to sch at 6.30am to prepare everything and to make sure that we have all the materials needed..the sec 1s were supposed to fall-in in parade square at 8am..after all of them reached,jessica took the attendance for gurls and chong ee took the attendance for the boys..den,milfred divided them into 6 different grps for the camp,namely- fork,spoon,toothpaste,toothbrush,torchlight and mug..for me,i'm in charge of fork..after the sepration of grps,the sec 1s were also told abt their bunk numbers..there were 6 bunks,bunks 1-3 are for the gurls while bunks 4-6 are for the boys..after that,the sec 1s were told to go to their bunks to put their belongings and the ncos in charged of the various bunks were suppose to instruct them on the rules and the bunk arrangement..for me,i was in charged of bunk 3..after the bunk arrangement,the sec 1s had their drills at abt 10am and den their lunch..the ncos den taught them how to light the solid fuel and how to cook using mass tins..after teaching them,we went to the canteen to hv our lunch..haha,we had catered food and the food was yummy =) hmm..after lunch was campcraft,and den games..the sec 1s played this game called "tutti fruity pom pi pi"..they were supposed to find the different kinds of fruits hidden in the school compound..the fruits that they had to find included dragon fruit,apple,lemon,chilli,red dates and papaya..after finding the fruit,they had to eat them in order to get more points..yupps,think the sec 1s enjoyed the game alot..after games session was PT,and their PT was bad..the whole lot of them got scolding..nxt was dinner,songs and cheer and den the most interesting one-night trail..the night trail took place at ard 9am..the sec 1s were blind folded and they were led by the ncos to go thru different obstacles which include crawling in the mud,ncos putting flour and powder on their body as well as spraying water with grass on their legs..after night trail was the bunk check..many of them got pumped because their bunks were nt up to standard..lastly,the sec 1s had their supper and slept at ard 1am..while the sec 1s were sleeping,we,the ncos din't get to slp at all..we had to patrol ard the sch to make sure that the gates are locked and that the sec 1s are ok..den there was also the fire drill in the middle of the nite..so,we only managed to slp for an hour plus..all of us were dog-tired..

03/06-the first programme for the day was PT,followed by breakfast and den drills..for their drill session,we taught them a new command-hentakaki..at first,i hv always thot that it was very easy to teach a new command,until i tried teaching the sec 1s today..it was reli difficult,bt seeing them carrying out the command correctly and learning something new just makes u feel so satisfied..next was games,lunch and den the clean-up session..for the clean-up session,the sec 1s were supposed to clean up their bunks and make sure that it is in tip top condition..after clean-up session,the sec 3 ncos checked their bunks and later on at 3+,they had their total defence course..while the sec 1s were hving their course,the sec 2 and sec 3 ncos had a debrief by mr lee..he asked us abt our opinions of the camp..the total defence course ended at ard 4.30am..the sec 1s had their debrief and all of us were dismissed at 5.05pm..yupp,this camp is certainly a fun one..i got to noe my seniors and squad mates better..this kinda bonded all of us together..we did all the planning together and played together..den bing chao keep bullying me..lols..

2005-06-01T22:51:00.000+08:00

went to sch at 10am today for npcc camp comittee meeting..the sec 2s got scolded by bing chao cause we din't plan out the details of the activities that we are in-charged of..the meeting lasted until ard 2pm..after that,theresa,joyce,amirah and me went to hougang mall to buy the stuff needed for the npcc sec 1 camp tmr..haha,we were doing last min shopping xD after we bought our stuff,we went to mac to eat and went hm at ard 4+..reached hm,rest for awhile and started packing for tmr's camp..reli hope that the sec 1s wud enjoy this 2 day 1 night camp that we planned for them..although its a training camp,bt we reli spent alot of time to plan it..so i'm just hoping that it wud be a success..

2005-05-30T11:24:00.000+08:00

28/05- had captain ball competition..its organised by our sch..woke up at 5 plus to get ready to reach sch by 6.30am..the competition started at 8am..i am 1 of the players,so,for the 1st round,we played against 4 schs,namely serangoon,punggol,zheng hua and dunman..yupp,it wasn't easy at all,esp when we were playing against zheng hua and dunman..bt the good thing is that we managed to win the 4 matches that we played,so we got into the finals =) the other 2 schs that got into the finals were yu ying and beatty..for the final round,we played against both yu ying and beatty and we won both of them!!! thats makes us the CHAMPION!!! YEAH!!!!! the 1st runner-up was yu ying and the 2nd runner-up was beatty..after the prize presentation,we got a scolding frm sir..he said that all we had in our mind were to win,and we didn't care abt hw the other schs felt..come to think of it,it was kinda true..everytime we won a match,we wud start cheering and the other schs wud just sit there nt knowing wad to do..somemore we are the organising sch..hmm,nvm..we wud learn frm our mistakes x)

29/05- went to help out in the family carnival today..i helped out at the game stall,it was quite fun actually..yupp,reached hm at 2+,den went to take a nap..i slept for 3 hrs cause i was too tired,plus the fact that it was raining..so it makes it even more cosier to slp..haha..when i woke up,i had sore eyes..my eyes were so red..argh!!!!!!!!

30/05- today's the start of june hols..wud be going to sch soon for npcc camp comittee meeting..so,wud stop here..bye..enjoy ur hols everyone!!!!!