Saturday, March 31, 2007

Man,I'm dead beat now.

Went to hta for np day full dress rehearsal and today's training was uber tiring. We were supposed to wear our first uniform,so we got changed immediately after we arrive,but after almost everyone has changed into their first uniforms,the CI told us to change back to half-u. Wasted a whole lot of time getting changed,taking down t-shirt sizes for our shirt,collecting the arms from the armoury and putting our bags. So all of us got kind of impatient,but this can't be helped,cause there were 100+ of us. The weather was super humid and we were perspiring real badly even before training starts. I got scolded by one of the sirs because he said I didn't wear my half-u properly. He was really sacarstic and he embaressed me in front of the others :( Being the right marker is so stressful and scary. It's like if you make a mistake,you'll get scolded by the CIs just because you are the right marker. I was really tired during training so at one point of time,I didn't lock my arms when marching,so one of the sirs approached me and said that if I continue to make that mistake,he's gonna change my position as a right marker. *sigh* All these scoldings kinda affected my mood just now and i almost teared. Whatever it is,i'm not gonna give up and i'm gonna prove to them i can do it. HANG IN THERE JANICE! =)

Anyway,we had our bayonets on our m-16 rifles today,and it's really cool! Haha (: I guess the whole GOH girls contingent improved alot today,and with more effort put in,i'm sure we'll do well on the actual day [: We shan't let the CIs say that the boys are better than us,cause girls can do as well too :D

School this week is stressful! I'm seriously lagging behind for e.maths and a.maths. I cannot catch up with the pace mr aw is going now. All the teachers are rushing through the syllabus and i'm trying really hard to absorb everything,but i can't,cause my mind has reached it's saturation point. I'm puting geography to use,hahaha (: Oh well,due to np day training,i always have to leave class early and miss quite a number of lessons,so I really gotta do self-study and catch up in which ever subject that i'm lagging behind.

Sec 4 life is seriously tiring,having to juggle my time between so many things. Many a time,it's either i revise my work and not get enough rest,go to school,feel tired and just completely switch off in class,or I take the time to sleep and feel lost in class cause I did not do self-study to catch up with whatever that I've missed,so I don't know what the teacher is talking about. It's so contradicting and I really don't know what to do.



So many things to complete and yet so little time.

posted by janice @ 6:39 PM