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physics and history paper today. it's like the worst combination of papers,cause both subjs are pretty tough and requires one to memorise alot of things. i realize that i couldn't juggle both subjs at the same time,cause i tend to concentrate on one subj and neglect the other.

yst was hcl paper and it turned out to be not as bad i thought it was. in fact the paper was rather easy,especially the compo for paper 1 cause we did the topic before (: yupps,after the paper,i went to look for ms chen to ask her some physics qns before rushing home to study. i started studying for physics at around 3pm,all the way to 11.30pm,of course with my dinner break in between and 1 hr of tv time. by then,i still had 2 chpts of physics left and i haven't started on history at all. at first,i didn't want to slp cause i haven't finish studying,but i was too lethargic,so i decided to slp for awhile. i slept at 11.30pm and set my alarm to wake up at 1am,thinking that i can study the 2 chpts of physics by 3am and i will still be left with 3 hrs to study for history before preparing to go to sch. in the end,my alarm wasn't working,so it did not ring and i didn't wake up at 1am. woke up at 5am instead,and i really freaked out when i saw the time. i panicked and i didn't know what to do.

it was really a test for me emotionally. i had to study as much as i can in the short amount of time i'm left with,but at the same time i had to battle the fears i had in me-the fear that my mind would just blank out when i see the paper. i went to sch,trying to study as much as i could but nothing seems to get in,there are many moments i tried to control my tears while studying,until i finally broke down before the papers. yes,i had a mental breakdown,and it was the first time i was feeling so fearful of a paper. i just cried everything out. yeah,i know its stupid but i would rather let it all out before the papers than just break down during the paper. mr reduan saw me crying and he consoled me. he told me that he know what i was undergoing and how i felt,somehow,i felt much better after what he told me. so i told myself that i got to face it,whether or not i studied for it,i still got to take the papers.

as expected,i didn't know how to do many qns in the physics paper,and for history,the topics that came out for the structured essay qns were on china and germany. unfortunately,i studied on the weimar government for germany but it didn't come out. both the qns under germany were on the nazi party. in the end,i chose the qn on germany cause i had no idea what the other 2 qns were talking abt. for the 1st part of the qn, i just wrote down everything that i know but i didn't do the second part,cause i didn't understand what the question was talking abt. yupps,and there goes my history and physics marks.

finally,this torturing week is over. and after what happened,i learnt that studying last min would not help at all. it was because i left everything to last min studying that i had difficulty coping with it. just let this be a lesson learnt to me,i'm going to be more consistent next time and make sure that this will not happen again =) i haven't been being myself these few days,guess i'm too stressed up over exams. everyone faces setbacks,and i'm not gonna let it stop me frm being myself,i'm gonna find the real JANICE back =]

6 papers down,4 more to go. work hard people,and we're gonna get promoted together. esp 3e2,we will and must go to sec 4 together =D anyway,it's very hazy these few days,so take care everybody!

5 more days to end of exams! yay!!! xD



cause time has made me strong
i'm starting to move on

posted by janice @ 10:19 PM