THOSE LOVELY MEMORIES (:

posted by janice @ 5:14 AM

The chinese new year break is over and we're back to school again.

Mr lim spoke to me during reflection period on friday and we talked about lots of stuffs. I think the main problem is I have poor time management skills. Like mr lim said,I could have made use of pockets of time in between meetings and all that to do my homework. Sometimes,my day is just packed with so many activities that I really need to take a break. He told me that he realize my school days and weekends are always fully packed,and if I do not let go of some stuffs,I will break down 1 day,and it's gonna be hard to recover from it. I thought about it for a long time and the first question that struck my mind was: "Am I being very irresponsible by doing that?" I decided to do all these so I should just carry on right?I mean I shouldn't just give up halfway like that. Rahhhh! I'm in a confused state of mind now and I feel really lost :(

Still trying to cope with everything. Studies,cca,friends,family and relationship. Yes,I know very well that i'm still not coping well. I feel so confined in my own space doing all the things I have on hand. I don't know if this is the life i really want.


When our time is up,
When our lives are done,
Will we say we've had our fun?
Will we make a mark this time?
Will we always say we tried?

posted by janice @ 7:11 PM

WISHING EVERYONE A HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR :D

just like the past years,we had reunion dinner yst at the resaturant located at farrer road. got to meet up with my relatives and catch up with them (: haha,i've always loved reunion dinners cause it's really nice to have everyone coming together to eat. so,i gotta see my dearest niece,megan! she's alrdy 2 and a half yrs old and she's super smart and cute! love her loads [:

so the next 2 days will be going to different places for visiting just like today. am gonna enjoy myself as much as possible before school starts again,and all the tests will start pouring in. yupp,thats about it,hope that all of you have a wonderful year ahead =)

posted by janice @ 10:24 AM

HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY! (:

today's valentines' day,and it's a special day to everyone. to me,valentines' day is a day for us to show our loved ones that we care for them,and it's not just meant for couples but friends too :] school today was great! everyone was carrying big bags of presents,distributing them to their friends and classmates. people were wishing each other happy valentines' day along the corridors and the atmosphere was just so heart warming. i love the atmosphere,where everyone is happy and they know that they are loved by the people around them =) it feels good to receive gifts from friends,even though the gifts are mostly candies and chocolates,but it really means alot! want to thank all my friends who wished me and those who gave me gifts,be it chocolates,sweets,marshmallows,accessories,stationery,letters or soft toys..i really appreciate it alot (: haha,i will take my time to eat those munchies. maybe i'll just put them on my table and whenever i feel down,i'll pop one into my mouth =D

anyway,i apologise for not updating cause i've been rather busy lately. basically,the past week had been full of ups and downs.

i cried on tuesday because i failed my recent physics test. many people have been telling me not to be too upset about it since it's just a class test and not some major exam like o levels,and it will not affect my ca marks. but the point is that i've been failing almost every physics test and exam since last year,and no matter how hard i study for it,the results seems to be the same. the feeling of discouragement spilled into my heart,and i just feel like giving up on physics. my friends around me have been improving on the subject but i'm still not making any improvements. if this continues,i really don't know how i'm going to sit for o level physics paper this year :(

alright,enough ranting about physics test. i've one good news to share! haha,actually it's alrdy like 2 weeks ago but since i didn't mention it in any of my posts,i shall mention it now..

NPCC GOT A GOLD FOR UOPA (unit overall proficiency award)! =D

haha,yupp,we're overjoyed by the achivement cause only 18 out of the 100+ np units got a gold. our hardwork did pay off (: of course,it's not solely our hardwork,but also our seniors',wanna thank them for contributing so much to the unit (: now that we've got gold,we gotta make sure we sustain it. no doubt it's hard but i guess we all have to put in effort.

to np mates and juniors: continue to put in your 100% commitment in np and i'm
sure we'll be able sustain the gold that we got. it's gonna be alot of hardwork
put in but in the end,you all will enjoy the fruit of success. so let's all work
hard together towards a better nv npcc unit [:

so we got to be the GOH for npcc day parade and training started last friday. it sure feels different to go there as GOH than supporting contingent cause we'll be using m-16 instead of baton. haha,the rifle is so cool,but its super heavy. by the end of the training,all our hands were aching from flipping the rifles and all that. i'm so looking forward to the actual parade where we get to wear the no. 1!!! man,i think we will all look so smart in it xD

anyway,o level results were released last friday. a miracle had happened and i actually scored an A1 for my chinese!!! i was really surprised cause i expected myself to get a B3. despite the result,i don't know whether i should feel happy or sad,cause there were 3 of us who scored B3. seeing si hua break down the other day,i felt really useless not being able to console her. but it's a good thing that cherlyn's appeal was successful =) si hua and bowie decided to drop hcl instead :(

to si hua and bowie: though i really hope you 2 will appeal,i will still support
your decision. i'm sure that you guys will be able to score A1 this time,have
confidence in yourself and i'm sure you all can do it! :D

posted by janice @ 7:03 PM

i broke down yst night :(

there were so many things running through my mind that i just cried my heart out. i feel like i'm sucha weakling. i'm tired of faking a smile when i feel so lousy deep down inside.
everything is not going right.
i need a break.



i wish i could fall into a deep sleep and nvr wake up again

posted by janice @ 3:15 PM